Could have been happier by asking for the things i like and wanted. Can't blame anyone cuz Im to be blamed for not insisting in what i want.
Understood myself alittle tonight - i do not know how to make myself happy. Often than not, im happy when people around me are happy and/or they make me happy. Often made decisions that are against myself but to the convenience of others and ended up getting upset. Im a true dilemma of myself and hated it! Thank goodnes, im grateful to the few who have tried to make me stay happy by remembering the words i made and by doing things that would make me happy cuz u know me well, my likes and dislikes.

I would be happier if i had said 'yes' instead of 'it's ok' and 'nvm'.


The Five Love Languages
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others. Dr. Chapman's love languages are: Words of Affirmation, Quality Time, Receiving Gifts, Acts of Service, and Physical Touch.


Your primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.


Complete set of results
Quality Time: 9
Physical Touch: 8
Acts of Service: 5
Words of Affirmation: 5
Receiving Gifts: 3

http://www.youthnetsouthampton.org.uk/breakout/lovelanguages.php


I pray for a simpler life, with simple thoughts, a simpler world whereby people treat one another sincerely with utmost gratitude and acceptance. I pray for the wisdom to make wise decisions. Seldom have i regretted any decision i made. More likely i chose not to look back at the decisions i made for there's something called fate. Guide me to my fate. Bring me to the route to happiness.

Yes, i find pleasure planning for wedding yet i find sense of lost looking into the future.
I feel concern yet i also feel embarrassement in public.
I appeared strong yet im soft inside.
I appeared quiet but i feel so much to talk to you. What's lacking is my courage to speak. I am passive in nature.
Hold me yet i fear for eternity is not there to stay.
Sacrificng makes me weak for i feel bad, it's not meant to be this way.

Been thru loads of processing and yes im still at crossroad whereby the knot is in the middle, remained to be untied. At end of the day, I still suck at expressing emotions. I should be banished to the faraway land.

The old Sand needs to get a facelift. Give her time to resolve, to reconsider and to change for the better.


Some lame jokes, yet they make my day a little happier

MR. BEAN SEES A DOCTOR :
Doctor : I regret to tell you that you have a brain tumor.
Mr. Bean: Yesss!!! (jumps in joy)
Doctor : Did you understand what I just told you?
Mr. Bean: Yes of course, do you think I'm dumb?
Doctor : Then why are you so happy?
Mr. Bean: Because that proves that I have a brain!

MR. BEAN WHILE IN GRADE SCHOOL:
Teacher : What is 5 plus 4?
Mr. Bean : 9
Teacher : What is 4 plus 5?
Mr. Bean : Are you trying to fool me, you've just twisted the figure, the answer is 6!!

MARRIAGE:
Friend : How many women do you believe must a man marry?
Mr. Bean: 16
Friend : Why?
Mr. Bean: Because the priest says 4 richer, 4 poorer, 4 better and 4 worse.

CHATTING WITH HIS FRIEND:
Friend : How was the tape you borrowed from me, is it Ok?
Mr. Bean: What do you mean ok, I thought it's a horror film. I didn't see any picture.
Friend : What tape did you take anyway?
Mr. Bean: Head Cleaner.

DEATH OF HIS MOTHER:
Mr. Bean:(crying) the doctor called, Mom's dead.
Friend : condolence, my friend.
(After 2 minutes) Mr. Bean cries even louder
Friend : what now?Mr. Bean: my sister just called, her mom died too!

MR. BEAN ATTENDING A MEETING:
Colleague : Sorry I'm late. I got stuck in an elevator for 4 hrs because of a power failure.
Mr. Bean : That's alright, me too...I got stuck on the escalator for 3 hrs.


im getting super paranoid over the ppl in my neighbourhood. Just wat is wrong in my quiet neighbourhood that i can't even go home at ease. and poor indians, esp old ones, have part of the suspects. just feel very fearful whenever i see a male by himself, walking beside me, sitting at the void deck or walking at a faster speed than me. STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!

finally completed data entry and looking forward to coming week! it's gonna be a HAPPIE week!! hooorraaayyyy! already thinking of what to have for lunch and dessert.. haha

went shopping on sat and sinfully spent some when it's not part of the shopping plan cuz im on tight budget! and yes!! now that i have done some maths and figured that it cost at least 150k to marry me, i had better tighten my cashflow and save for rainy days, just in case my future husband has no bucks to make me a mrs. *faint* guess i had better (and i think it's a high possibility) made provision for "Being Left on the Shelf"

150k includes
- wedding photoshoot (and i insist in life overseas beach photoshots) and actual photoshoot,
- gown and suit (if possible, will wanna buy the gown instead of rent, abit dumb to buy cuz i'll only wear once but it's a lifetime memory, yet again will depend on my budget when the wedding bell rings)
- printing of invitation cards
- ROM lunch and preparation cost
- traditional gifts when parents are involved, all the pin4 li3 and cakes for friends and relatives
- banquet for at least 40 tables for both parties (can recover part of this cost) and all the ang baos for the helpers
- at least 30k of house deposit
- renovation and designer cost of at least 50k for customized design
- honeymoon sum (place yet to decide - maybe egypt, barcelona or italy or undecided)
and lastly buffer sum of 30k for after marriage poverty

So... any takers????


The guy who love you
The guy who love you , if he can'talways see you,he will try to make himself busy, for not to have any time to remember you, because he knew, if he did, he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.
The guy who love you, can't tell you the reasonwhy he love you. he only knew that, in his eyes,you are the only one.
The guy who love you,seldom praise you , but inhis heart, you are the best, only he know it.
The guy who love you, will scold or complaint ifyou din't reply his message but others, becausehe cares.
The guy who love you , only drop his tears infrontof you, when you try to wipe his tears, you aretouching his heart , the heart which beat for you.
The guy who love you , will remember every word u said , even its accidentally and he will use theword always at the nick of time.
The guy who love you, will not give any promisethat easily, because they don't want to break the promise, they want you to believe him and they want to give you the happiest and safest life everafter.
The guy who love you, always tell you not to think too much, because they already plan it for you, he want to give u the best life in the future, he want to give you a suprise, believe him that he can do it.
The guy who love you, will go to airport to fetchyou, he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you darling like what you expect, but he will carry your luggage and ask you " why are you becoming that thin within two days?" with his sincere heart.

The boy who love you
The boy who love you, will listen quietly to you, when you are mad, and when you finished, he will said, you still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier with smile.
The boy who love you, don't know that whether he should call you when you are angry, but he will sent a message to you after few hours, if you ask him why he call that late, he will said, when you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But when you calm down, my explanation will only reallyworks.
The boy who love you, always call you little kid, but everytime he want to make a big decision, hewill first want to hear your advice.
The guy who love you, don't like little toy like teddybear, but he will always put the bear you gift him athis bed.
The guy who love you, while quarelling, he will apologize uncontrollably, althought you are the onewho's wrong, and later, he will sent a message toyou with " baby, actually you know its your fault,you know it urself "
The guy who love you, while really miss you, he will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait you stupidly under your apartment but he never knows , what he bought is daisy, but doesn't matter, because in his heart, that's roses.


Wonderful weekend during the long labour day weekend! Was out at Ubin with FTB and tho the day didnt kick off well and smoothly, i managed to pack up all disturbing emotions and enjoyed my day out! It's by far the shortest but most enjoyable Ubin trip I have been to. The crowd is fun yet the times are short. Wonder how long more can we have such gathering and outing whereby all of us from varied backgrounds get to bond together as a harmonious group.

Indeed it wasn't my day. Cuz the moment i got onto the bike, a gush of uneasiness sets in, something like a bad omen and yet can't figure out what could happen. Well, i was out cycling in the nature, the only possile bad thing tat could happen is a bike accident. And indeed no matter how careful i tried to be, i still scraped my knee while going uphill somemore!!! It's meant to go wrong anyway. It isn't just a mere scratch. Quite painful actually but heck la, continued with the ride and fun. Worst thing is i ate seafood with FTB at ubin. The myth always go liek this - never eat any seafood or anything 'toxic' when u have an open wound. Oh well, i just did and more seafood and 'toxic' food for the past few days. Beginning to believe the myth cuz it's kinda swollen and hot and bleeding or rather the pus is still oosshing out. OK, enough of the gross details but it's still pain. Forget it, im just whining!


Here’s what happened when my knee kissed the ground…


Nasi Lemak brunch at Changi V.. Yummy.. Guest Apperance by Eng Orh’s dear


Everyone is waiting for draw money… apparently gers are more broke isit??


G shot!! First and only attempt!


At the Quarry.. lovely, clear water and great place for us to rest our butts..


And we realized that tortoises eat raisins too!


Coconut drink!!! Our saviour for the throat! And that’s where our desaru trip sets root! *Looking forward*


At Mamam Beach… where we began to think of seafood dinner!


Here it goes… Crabs and more crabs!


Parting shot from ubin!


And FTB never seem to be exhausted! Headed to 3 hrs KTV at Loyang Point and last minute proposal to prata at Thomson! haha.. and all ended well by 11pm!

At the same time im missing frenz whom i haven meet up for a long while... miao, mh, cynthia, ade, winnie, willie, jiayi, marc. Hope work is well for those working, exams have been smooth for those schooling and attachment will b a fruitful one for winnie! Looking forward to meet u guyz!

Saw this ...

... and reminded me Life only leads a one-way path, it can not be rewind nor can it be erased.


THE MAYONNAISE JAR AND 2 CUPS OF COFFEE

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous yes.

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. "Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things -- your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favourite passions -- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house,and your car. The sand is everything else -- the small stuff." "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls."

The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

31 Oct 83
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