Tuesday, October 11, 2005 10:15 PM
last wk ended with a big bang (actually on fri onli la) .. it ended healthily and is gonna be the same this wk!!! me, xiaohan, darling, parrot, maria signed up for planet fitness trial week for this wk and it started today!! haha
first was last fri when we went for free yoga organized by EY.. super good welfare haha.. and hopefully src have more funds for more of these trials sessions.. haha.. anyway all of us ha a good stretch during the gentle yoga.. and pls it's not gentle at all.. stretched to our max and so different from the usual relaxing yoga i have every sunday. but it was good warm up for our skating later at night. and serious!! we went skating at east coast, courtesy of zhenxi's free coaching. haha.. and i was so useless la.. was the first casuality and only managed to balance myself and took a few steps. anyway the skate was a good way to distract myself from certain unhappy things. didnt expect things to have taken such a turn and im still quite unsure what i should do from here. shall live each day as it is.
followed on was photo sharing session.. in fact we have been sharing our childhood photos during training le and was only going thru them again cuz yy came only at night. poor him was on mc for 3 days. anyway. had so much fun looking thru each other's photos and had such a G luff.. haha.. and maria was soooo difficult to spot. haha.. xiaohan and xiao ching also diff to spot.. or am i lousy? watever...
home sweet home at 4plus am.. as usual for a fri night..
had a very very lazy weekend except for sat when i went shopping therapy and spent slightly above 150.. didnt rellie feel the pinch.. perhaps some other things had a bigger impact on me. anyway reallie appreciate all those who had showered me with concern and care these few days. .. darling, lynette, yy, zhenxi, meiqi and mh.. i know i will have u guys for companion no matter what happens.. thanx for all the encouragement, comfort and be disturbed by me cuz im just too bored and what u all have done for me. reallie appreciate!!
healthy lifestyle being last night with table tennis with yy, zx and darling at void deck!! haha.. last minute arrangement and 4 of us continued with mahjong till 1am .. as tho there's no work tmr lor.. haha.. but heck la.. we just wan to have fun!!! and yy alone win 3 of us lor.. super loaded.. haha
woo.. more abt happy stuffs.. training!!! woo... G G G!! G for Great!! haha.. it was picnic, gathering, and a bird park with lotsa laughing monsters!! haa.. cuz me n lynette are now the parrots in team D!! just so happened that we always said the same thing at the same time with the same pitch.. it's just so coincidental even until now.. so fun!!! haha.. y laughing monsters cuz me and my darling are the monsters lor.. cant stop laughing, even over the slightest non-amusing thing.. and it can be turned into something so ridiculously comical.. haha.. that's just me n darling la... had lotsa food on our table too and our teamwork is G too!! partly due to our existing strong bond i guess!! but i do feel bad cuz we are rather noisy and disturbing to other teams.
happy times fly and it's alrdy mid week tmr which means training will end in exactly one week's time, which means most of us will be on job and our get together time will shorten.. nvm there's few more days to our enjoyment.. have fun to our hearts content!!!
err... will try to upload e photos soon.. my desktop still in process of retrieving photos
Wednesday, October 05, 2005 11:36 PM
Just got to know that two of my cousins have became single and another of my cousin has just divorced and it's because her husband has an affair. there's always exceptions and i have to witness them. Saman and Gordon were married for almost a decade and after trying out test tube baby for a few times and God eventually granted their wish with a beautiful baby girl last year. They are the model couple for everyone. Beauty and the Handsome are just the perfect match but they failed to work out because one of them gave way. It's the most unlikely outcome but it just happened. Goes to show that nothing is absolute. Well her brother, my cousin, has also just turned attached to another girl. They have been dating for 10 yrs and tho the entire family doesnt reallie fancy his gf but still since they are sooo close, we respect his decision. They were almost preparing for marriage and we thought there's gonna be another happy occassion in the Lim family. But after several major hiccups, they eventually broke off too.. sigh... nothing is absolute again. His younger brother, again also, suffered similar fate. wonder what went wrong with the 3 of them. But that's not the point..
these news were meant to be a secret kept away from me cuz my dad do not wish me to have any fear towards marriage but my mum, as usual, being gossipy couldnt tahan the news and eventually blurted out. i had to comfort her and assure her that it's not gg to affect me much but... i was bluffing. Took me quite a long period to convince myself that marriage can be beautiful as long as you find 'The One' and both take the efforts to work things out. Till now i still bear mix feelings towards marriage cuz of all the uncertainties facing me. There's no guarantees to anything. Even insurance cant warrant that you may recover the same initial value of an item cuz of a clever discovery called depreciation. Same thing applies to a r/s. It can nvr stay the same and depreciates too. As a r/s drags too long ahead, there comes a stale pt. Once it reaches the plateau u have to use triple or even more the effort to work against gravity and all other obstacles to bring it back to normality.
Feel so disheartened by all the disappointing stories around me... or rather feel abit lost in the complex affairs of the heart. Fun life around me lately is taking control of me.. it has made me feel as though i am single and am ready to stay single for long.. yet im aware i cant stand loneliness and that should not be the reason y i shud hang on to something that is not satisfying me.
m i living in a world of my own?? i doubt so.. i cant live happily without anyone around me. frenz and family are important to me and i value them very much. They are the motivation for me to wake up everyday and embrace the cruelity of the world. They are also the ones who give me a purpose in life even though that means i may not be living for myself for most part of my life but for them. then again they must be worthy the value in the first place in order for me to treasure. yet come the issue of the measurement of worthiness. if he/she is some trash, should i ignore him/her and leave him/her alone? that will be too cruel and i dunno how to reject.
someone just kill me.. y m i reading so much into things? m i even making sense? i m entitled to feel being treated right and i am entitled to request for something that makes me happy (but of cuz with limits imposed la, cannot go too far with e requests) ... urgh... i sense a mentality change cuz i seldom demand and came so straight with thoughts.. but wad the heck.. i just need a channel of releasing.. im still not done with thoughts.. continue again another day.. too tired from training today..
sand out
Sunday, October 02, 2005 10:47 PM
A lazy yet fruitful sunday...
made some winnings at the mahjong table today and Yan Yan has to stand in for MG to curb my winning spell.. fine la.. i still win in the end *bleh* long time no see the guys le.. not tat i miss them SOOO much but haven been seeing them for nearly 2 mths.. as compared to the frequent outings we had every week.. sigh.. miss the fun with them to the nature reserves and badmintons.. Yan Yan say no more badminton session this hols cuz the group is getting bigger and arrangements are tougher to made but i seriously think they are good bonding sessions.. how often can you get a group of 15 and more together and in such high frequency??? perhaps they can take turn to arrange? of cuz i cant join u all for weekday badmintons anymore.. weekends will be good.. hehe... bet their Dec will b super happening without saya :(
It;s time for those studying to get cracking with the books.. Hope that they stay consistent and persistent during this period.. Palz.. maximum 2 mths to go... hang on there and you will see the light at the end of the path! Ganbatte!!!
Another sad thing happened. What else besides the Bali bomb blasts that occurred one after another on the beautiful beaches. I have never been there but the pics of Bali are enough to instill some daydreams in me. Was even considering Bali for this year's getaway but dun think i can even get permission to go if i reallie wanna go. Anyway if u are fated to leave this world, you will soon be on that path.. no point escaping. In a span of three years Bali was blasted twice in October somemore. Those suicide bombers have nothing better to do isit?? Y drag the innocent lives to die with you.. evil people!!! Terrorism is never ending. Change is not the only constant now.. Terrorism is the second. To all the kind souls out there, do pray harder for the reamining blessed ones and may they pull thru this difficult period safely.
In fact i have to pray for myself also lor.. Lynette said that she stoppped bleeding on the second day after her wisdom tooth extraction but i am still bleeding today!!! Goodness gracious me, it's the fourth day and it's back to bleeding quite badly... i dun wan to suffer from loss of blood!! is there anything wrong with my gum or the wound??? it's gonna be back to work tmr and i hope everything will be fine tmr.
Gonna watch vampire 3 le...
Saturday, October 01, 2005 10:18 PM
Happy Children Day to everyone!! Afterall we were kids before, there's a kid in everyone so everyone deserves this blessing. Just dun overdo it la.. being over childish puts people off.. haha
Still trying to recall i celebrated children day in the past.. i think there were files or highlighters as gifts, Aces Day falls on the same day too and definitely some performances by.. er.. forgot who.. haha.. those were the days...
5:25 PM
urgh!!! feeling so dizzy and weak and feeble. lack of food is depleting the energy level in me. sh**!!! have been eating porridge and only some vege.. sian-ed!!! and no one is at home to even "hew" me.. mummy is out mahjong-ing and papa is only coming back spore this evening and dar is bz... grrr... fend for myself la ... wads new!!!
but on hind sight.. my determination level is still very high.. managed to pull myself out of the house to go for tuition and come back home. reallie didnt wan to black out for the 3rd time this year and tried to rest awhile before setting out for tuition... luckily i thought of glucose to give me energy and bot some home.. sshhheeeesshhh.... save my soul.. reallie dun think i can survive without food for even a day.. blame it on my usual huge appetitie la... wonder how long i will take to put on weight after this round of loss. can i even go yoga tmr??????? i dun wan to faint again.. save me!!!