Saturday, September 13, 2008 2:28 AM
perhaps she is not as strong and independent as everyone's perception. Out of desperation, not willingness, she puts up a strong front contrary to her honest self - to ease everyone.
promises lies ahead of disappointment yet no one has ever listened with his heart.
search for identity is on the go. thirst for joy and understanding never cease. reasoning drains her out.
this isn't what she is after. time is the main culprit yet there is no way to nab time. ironically, only time will tell what is the next step.
Sunday, May 18, 2008 3:32 PM
looks like june is an exciting month - the month of holidays and love and joy and FUN!!
still thinking if i should take leave to go Sibu Island. Batam is quite sure since it's a weekend but i do not have that many leave to spare... *recalls those days when TOIL is never clear-able*
oh well... shall try my luck
something for your pleasure...
http://www.myoutdoor.com/sir/index.htm
Sunday, May 11, 2008 12:46 AM
why is it that my intended messages nvr seem to get to you? am i not explicit enough or have you been ignorant of my statements? told myself so many times before calling to control my temper and emotions yet the attitude presented to me could not curb my temper low enough. am i too short-tempered or did ou purposely do so? at a bad time like this, it just doesn't help by exchanging fireballs. i tried to control... really!! can u tell?? can you tell that i have changed??? i am making less noise despite feeling utterly ignored and neglected for months! despite making time out to stay indoors, i still put on a happy front! and perhaps that's why nothing seem to be wrong, nothing seems necessary to be done to make up to my lousy feelings all these months. i am definitely not understood even when you said that i dun understand. life is short. birth and death are a cycle. instead of getting upset over the end, why not take a stand from another angle - it's a relief from sufferings. i am concerned yet i am kept out behinf the wall. someone tell me what i should do now! it's too straining on me and also you. i just need a little respect, a little indication that you acknowledge my presence. if you had not taken on so many responsibilities, would things be better? would you have spare a thought for my feelings before taking up the duties? would you listen to me, with your heart?? i tink you are heartless, only when facing me!
Sunday, April 27, 2008 2:11 AM
why am i still up at this hour!!! answer is simple as i have been sleeping for the WHOLE of today! felt as if i was drugged!! serious!! but, on 2nd thoughts, i could be really getting old - can hardly survive through 6 hours of ktv the previous night! how cruel time can be....
going for tuition later at 11 and that means i have only 6 hours of sleep if i turn in promptly at 230am! well... home alone and there's NO ONE to accompany me... win lor!! just YOU wait!!
counting down.... to???? payback time!! LWY.... 4 more days!!!
Tuesday, April 22, 2008 12:04 AM
DARRYL ONG!!! u r my NO. 1 enemy from now on!!! whether u see it or not, i dunch care! JUST GET LOST!!!
and LWY!!! payback time in 9 more days!!! reap what you sow!!!!
Monday, April 21, 2008 9:41 PM
perhaps i am really the cause of the trauma that is not erasable from memory. if it is traumatic for you, i wished i had not been involved and the scar will never have a chance to form. if it is traumatic for you, i am no where better. can i have the wonder eraser???
Saturday, April 05, 2008 11:09 PM
i am a good-for-nothing and a useless fool.
i wasn't watching tv but staring into blank space for close to 2 hours, wondering why did it happen since there's nothing can be done to salvage; at least i know i should not help anymore.