SANDcastle

2008-09-13T02:28:00.003+08:00

perhaps she is not as strong and independent as everyone's perception. Out of desperation, not willingness, she puts up a strong front contrary to her honest self - to ease everyone.

promises lies ahead of disappointment yet no one has ever listened with his heart.

search for identity is on the go. thirst for joy and understanding never cease. reasoning drains her out.

this isn't what she is after. time is the main culprit yet there is no way to nab time. ironically, only time will tell what is the next step.

2008-05-18T15:32:00.001+08:00

looks like june is an exciting month - the month of holidays and love and joy and FUN!!

still thinking if i should take leave to go Sibu Island. Batam is quite sure since it's a weekend but i do not have that many leave to spare... *recalls those days when TOIL is never clear-able*
oh well... shall try my luck

something for your pleasure...
http://www.myoutdoor.com/sir/index.htm

2008-05-11T00:46:00.003+08:00

why is it that my intended messages nvr seem to get to you? am i not explicit enough or have you been ignorant of my statements? told myself so many times before calling to control my temper and emotions yet the attitude presented to me could not curb my temper low enough. am i too short-tempered or did ou purposely do so? at a bad time like this, it just doesn't help by exchanging fireballs. i tried to control... really!! can u tell?? can you tell that i have changed??? i am making less noise despite feeling utterly ignored and neglected for months! despite making time out to stay indoors, i still put on a happy front! and perhaps that's why nothing seem to be wrong, nothing seems necessary to be done to make up to my lousy feelings all these months. i am definitely not understood even when you said that i dun understand. life is short. birth and death are a cycle. instead of getting upset over the end, why not take a stand from another angle - it's a relief from sufferings. i am concerned yet i am kept out behinf the wall. someone tell me what i should do now! it's too straining on me and also you. i just need a little respect, a little indication that you acknowledge my presence. if you had not taken on so many responsibilities, would things be better? would you have spare a thought for my feelings before taking up the duties? would you listen to me, with your heart?? i tink you are heartless, only when facing me!

2008-04-27T02:11:00.001+08:00

why am i still up at this hour!!! answer is simple as i have been sleeping for the WHOLE of today! felt as if i was drugged!! serious!! but, on 2nd thoughts, i could be really getting old - can hardly survive through 6 hours of ktv the previous night! how cruel time can be....

going for tuition later at 11 and that means i have only 6 hours of sleep if i turn in promptly at 230am! well... home alone and there's NO ONE to accompany me... win lor!! just YOU wait!!

counting down.... to???? payback time!! LWY.... 4 more days!!!

2008-04-22T00:04:00.004+08:00

DARRYL ONG!!! u r my NO. 1 enemy from now on!!! whether u see it or not, i dunch care! JUST GET LOST!!!

and LWY!!! payback time in 9 more days!!! reap what you sow!!!!

2008-04-21T21:41:00.003+08:00

perhaps i am really the cause of the trauma that is not erasable from memory. if it is traumatic for you, i wished i had not been involved and the scar will never have a chance to form. if it is traumatic for you, i am no where better. can i have the wonder eraser???

2008-04-05T23:09:00.003+08:00

i am a good-for-nothing and a useless fool.
i wasn't watching tv but staring into blank space for close to 2 hours, wondering why did it happen since there's nothing can be done to salvage; at least i know i should not help anymore.

2008-04-02T22:47:00.003+08:00

perhaps it was my fault; i am pms-ing; perhaps i am lack of sleep; perhaps i am having attitude problem; perhaps she was the one who showed attitude; perhaps i have low threshold for attitude ppl; perhaps i read too much into it and acted in response... perhaps perhaps perhaps...

knowing myself i only react upon reaction... under normal circumstances, i wouldnt have feel irritated unless i see attitude... YET again.. maybe i dunno myself that well eventually!!!
nevertheless... it's a scar and i wanna patch! maybe i have v low threshold for ppl with attitude that differs from me since i noticed i haven been working well with ppl with slightly colder and "stronger' attitude... i worked better with ppl who are cheerful.. straightforth, direct, and can tease and play along with and crap with me at all times... i am not as serious a soul as what i may appear to be lor...
well.. not many such souls... so i must work out some way...

whatever is the cause and reason... i have to embrace tmr bravely and gave my brightest smile 'cause today will be over in an hour and all will be buried (but depends on the other party can bury it tooo)

2008-04-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

there's nothing i can help and the helpless feeling sucks big time!

2008-02-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

wooohooo!!! 2nd day of lunar new year and i am alrdy rotting at home!!! best of times!!! managed to clear 95% of mandatory visiting on the 1st day!!! hahahaha including dear's side!! hehe so did he wowwww amazing.. 1st attempt!! anyway life's been ok so far.. dunch really dare to say good cuz somehow things will just turn out contrary.. that's not superstition but just a caution that i should never be complacent with things in life. been learning how to treasure things more dearly than before. the feeling of loss is simply too much to take and where possible the turmoil cannot meet me again. wonder who will hear this but at least myself know that i am changing for the better. sand will do good!

quite alot of surprises this year cny hmmmm... beautiful surprises i would say... beautiful surprises that i will keep with me in my memories for own consumption =)
here's wishing everyone a happy lunar new rat year and may the year be one that is...
Fulfiing.... 步步高升
Prosperous.... 财源广进
Lovely... 恩恩爱爱
Smooth Sailing... 心想事成

2008-01-26T16:47:00.001+08:00

the star-shaped glass bottle has finally shattered into tiny pieces on that fateful day.
the tiny bits pierced thru my ear and my heart with the sharp uneasiness.
there doesnt seem i can do anything to change things. it's my fault afterall. perhaps i have pushed to the limit and no point regretting it now.

2008-01-25T15:13:00.001+08:00

in case some ppl may thought i have vanished into thin air and join the means-testing samples in hospitals.. i am still ard at pig sty! would really wish i am admitted to hospital at least i will feel...........

a sick person gets very emo easily yet this sick person dun get what she wished for.....
she is really at wits ends... pondering on the W-H-Y, H-O-W and S-H-O-U-L-D-I questions.....
i need a clue.... not an invisible hand to tie me to the dead spot.....

2008-01-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

some stupid thoughts but i believe they will go away very soon :P

they must go away no matter wat cuz there's no way the tots can be realized in real life

2 months ago i escaped to Bintan... those were the very dark days which have turn brighter now and i hope the glow continues forever.. thanks mae for continuously keeping me company for 4 days without even asking the question "why"... really appreciate your companion and your understanding my need to evade from reality.. mushy huh.. but really thank you!!!

good scenery and good food never fail to lit a smile on me =)

92 pics in 2days *faint* while i am in lousy mood somemore... it's mae laaaaa

2008-01-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. the entire week has been rather fruitful.. learnt new things and got my hands on some projects... though i think i haven been very productive cuz of the interactive msn!!! first time resisted myself from onlin-ing when i have available network. haahhahaa.. okk i am progressing! oh well... will be gg HK this coming wk. Date not confirm yet but i do hope is Sun or Mon instead of Fri or following Mon cuz Jay's concert is on SAT!!! i am really praying very very very hard that the plan is to fly in on Sun and not FRI!!! plsssssssssss...... i really wan to watch the concert!!! esp when dear is going toooo!!!!!!!! plsssssssssssssssssssssss

parrot is finally back! thanks for helping with coach and butterfingers..

school is starting for the nus ppl tho ntu ppl have started one week. all the best to all who are having final sem now! fyp/thesis is tough but the pain will be over very very soon in a blink of eye!

and thanks mae for taking one whole afternoon to upload pics! love ya =)

2008-01-05T23:27:00.001+08:00

it's the 1st weekend of 2008 but i spent it working! at least the 1st sat is working, leaving Sunday for myself, without work. it sort of wrapped up in a balanced way. but the work days are kinda stress without work allocated. tat sounds ironic doesnt it. generally find the new team very competent, in fact, over competent for a peer at the same rank. well, i am new and of cuz i am impressed with ppl who have stayed there for 1-2 years and definitely picked up loads more than a greenman like me. director mentioned that many jobs are in the pipeline and most likely everyone will be loaded with 3 or even 4 jobs during these 3 mths which is supposedly the peak here (it's the same as aabs btw). i have never been double-booked on jobs for the past 2.5yrs and now i face the likelihood of having 3 is making my nerves tighten much more!

challenges set me forward! so i shall hang on to the mentality!

my believe is getting stronger and i am finding my focal point!

2008-01-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

yooohoooo!!! it's the new year!!!!! 2007 is past and kept in archive! embraces 2008 with hopes, love, beautiful surprises, and happiness!! to all my dear frenz... may the year be a prosperous one for u! more importantly stay happy and healthy!

2007-12-31T15:47:00.000+08:00

i have a face that only my parents are comfortable with and probably dear...

2007-12-27T00:52:00.001+08:00

sand sand is getting sicker... haizzzz..she should see a doctor tmr, been procrastinating for 1 wk! she enjoys all the meet ups this week and the gatherings hmmmm... wish these days dun end! but stop dreaming sandra lim!!!

toopid k box dun have k student this wk until 2 jan!!! paid $23.50 for an afternoon sing *big wails*

2007-12-25T23:45:00.001+08:00

merry xmas, folks!!!! it's been a great xmas so far cuz i am not working! heheheeeeeee sure kena bashed! anyway my pressies have been great so far and companion has been great too! more activities to come in the coming week

Wed - lunch n dinner dates
Thurs - WWW-cum-chalet + manager's treat
Fri - most prob rest at hom (maybe FTB will have some last minute outing again keke)
Sat - Dar's appointment and maybe Mahjong kekekeke
Sun - FTB xmas gathering! kinda late but nvm la.. better alte than nvr.. there goes my month anniversary :(
Mon - New Year's eve... no plans yet... any date???
Tues - New Year Day... get ready to slog for the new year and report to new department the next day
Wed - the beginning of doom day :(

oh well.... 2008... round and even number.. i like!! may it be a better one for me and everyone! it's kinda exciting for me. not tat i am getting married but.... in time to come, the truth shall reveal!!! SANDRA LIM will work hard in the coming 2008!!!
Ganbatte everyone!!

2007-12-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

ms tandun!!! where are our bintan pics??? almost 2 mths already! plssssssssss missy mae =) actually alot more are outstanding :P

2007-12-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

sand is a gift wrapper today. she wrapped xmas presents for her frenz and on behalf of her fren. so kind of her. but yet she is also very bored at home. she spent her day watching HK drama and clearing some of her cupboards to make space for her audit stuffs which will soon be a history. she hopes it will become history as look forward to adapting to new jargons such as PPA, estate duty, asset accumulation, current ratio, quick ratio etc. she wishes her life to be smoother from now on. as she looked back at 2007, she heaved a sigh of relieve that it is finally reaching an end. she is looking forward to a better, brighter and more fruitful 2008 with less pain, unhappiness and more joy and energy. she felt very happy last night while walking down orchard road and was soaked in the joy of giving. she made a silent wish but she's unsure if it will become true. sand is sorry about what happened last night and she is again unable to explain herself clearly.

sand sand hopes tonight is short!

2007-12-16T02:02:00.000+08:00

returned from Hanoi 5 days ago and now im down with flu, sinus, cough... okay... some ppl may be saying im having bird flu bcuz im a parrot!! watever.... im fine! just very bad sinus cuz the air there is really dusty and vietnamese cabbies are very environmentally friendly as they try not to turn on air-con unless requested by customers. so most of the time we didnt request since it's kinda cooling without air con but that means we breathed in alot of CO2. haizzz... and walking on the streets means we were exposed to the dirty emission. oh well... partly im sick is as a result of my partner. haizzzz cant blame him. could be the cold cold Sapa's fault too.

anyway.. below are some short sypnosis of my trips. most of the pics have been uploaded in facebook photo album.
dear with the welcome drink at hotel... Hanpi Elegance 2! woooo... love this hotel lots! staff are super friendly, helpful and nice! and they speak good english! we were impressed!

here's the outlook of our hotel.. 7 storeys only with only 3 rooms on each storey. abit small but just nice for 2 in a room and a few luggages.. nice decor tooooo....

our 1st dinner at Hanoi before boarding overnight train to Sapa. This is at 69 Ma May which is just next to our hotel and apparently it's quite authentic and popular among tourists. Look at the calendar they are using.. omg! Tried the Bun Cha which is a local fried pork fillet.

At Tamarind Cafe just opposite hotel. Some drinks.. i had Mango Martini and that's notch strong at all. Gosh im becoming alcoholic after 1 mth of alcohol downing. Stupid pics again.. hahaah

We took overnight train to Sapa. OK that's the biggest disappointment for the trip! We booked tickets for soft sleeper for a cabin of 4 (ok we bought 2 other beds in order to get the full cabin to ourselves for safety reason) and the cabin is in a horrendous condition. Even worst than the one i took to Chiang Mai. Nearly fainted. Bed was dusty even though it's supposed to be usually full. Air con wasn't strong (or was there even supposed to be???) but the air is naturally cooling enough to give the AC a miss. Then the windows had the tendency to slide down and that meant it was noisy! you know how train moves and the click clock sound they made. goodness! and we had to bear with the same train back!!! where was my royal sapa train!!!!!! it's utter unroyal lor!! have a look for yourself!

Start of our Sapa trek after arriving at Lao Cai Railway Station and another 1 hr bus trip up the mountain in Sapa! They grow bamboo there. no wonder my hotel is called Bamboo Sapa but they dunch have pandas there. haha Thank goodness i spent VND 5,000 for that walking stick. that's like 50cents only and it lasted me thru the trek which is my virgin mountain climbing where i was totally unprepared for! almost "killed" me! this is the weather condition during the trek. holy 12 degrees! but felt like 5 degrees! and guess wat i didnt bring enuff clothes for the cold lor! all i had was one jacket luckily Dear brought extra jacket and for once i appreciate his over-bringing habit! haha wind was so strong and tat reminded my winter days in Shanghai 2 years ago! 2 years later i am experiencing the same thing! cool!! but too cold alrdy but the trekking sort of warm me up a little. some H'Mong villages followed us along the trip. well there's a purpose cuz they want tourists to buy tribal souvenirs from them! but some speak really good English which they picked up from tourists. and the kids were so small yet they are already working.
a brief peep at the route down to the terraces and villages. this is just the beginning and when there's a way down, there's a way up! it's always 2-way!

at some mini hill top where i tot the end of the trek is almost here but i was wrong.....

does these remind you of some geography textbooks images when human geography covered the irrigation terraced fields for planting rice and crops?? haaaa and i witnessed with my bare eyes! they are beautiful and amazing! plentiful there and this is indeed a geography field trip! haha this is somewhat at the bottom of valley already and that's where nightmare began cuz when's a downhill, there's an uphill *fainted* parrot's grand canyon description came to my mind and how mae would have reacted to this mountain climbing and what happened in Korea. memories flooded but i was more worried for myself cuz the following show my path up... not man-made paths u know...

Here, the worst is almost over but my tears were almost near my eyelids and my legs wobbly! and the tour guide must add on to the misery by putting me on the suspension bridge! so tiring and scary! what an achievement, SANDRA LIM!

this is how village kids lead their lifes - carefree, innocent, simple and back to basic! Dar took ALOT of kids pics and videos. He simply love kids too much but there's indeed stark difference to how kids behave and grow up in developed and developing countries. I feel for those in the latter countries, the social and personal development they are deprived of. Yet I also feel that urban kids are sometimes too spoilt that they do not seem to know the art of appreciation. I guess globalization is the cause and there's no way we can halt it but to be a good educator in the society.

spotted some chicks there! like this pic... they look so cute!
Behind Dar is a playground for the village kids. Can Dar dun look so dao kia..... haizzz
At a bridge after Tavan village that concluded our first day trek! Phweeeeee!!!

It was so cold that we had to rent a heater for USD7 and it doesnt help much but at least it does help a little during a crisis on that night. I was glad nothing bad happened in the end. Chanting helped :) The water heater was omg!! the ever historic one! it worked like this - every time the tap is on, a flame will be burning until it burnt out and water is supposed to be heated from the burning flame BUT it didnt work!! for entire night we had no hot water and we bathed in ice cold water in the cold night at least 10 degrees!!! OMG!!! freezed the hell out of me!! glad it was only 1 night!!

Come 2nd day in Sapa, we continued trekking to another village, Ba Cha and the villagers continue to follow us and hounding for purchase. Oh well.. this time round I am smarter cuz the 1st day i paid SGD10 for 2 items - a pencil case and a bangle! i didnt bargain cuz they helped us along the way while trekking so felt bad not paying them yet on hindsight i could have asked for 5 bucks. Nevermind... i would rather see it as a kind deed for the villagers.
See how they wash vegetables, in the drain!! and their legs with mini waterfall. Villagers there made some strings used for clothing as a living and the strings are called Indigo simply because they will dye them indigo colour and sew it onto clothes which are the black cloth u see up there.

I am standing on a dried terrace which has harvested. And probably you may not be able to see the lavender i was touching.

This is the watermill that villagers set up. From past readings they use to be able to generate some form of movement for generators but doesnt seem to be the same usage anymore. There's a bigger one below but not captured in this video.

Behind me is another one but made of wooden sticks. They really move! but much slower, even slower than the one in video above. Well, something not seen in little red dot and will not likely to be seen anymore.
We thus continue our way to the Silver Waterfall! Weather was so much better on the 2nd day and getting near the waterfall is even cooler and NOT freezing cold! very scenic place where we stayed for close to 30min. Tour group was easier to manage as we had only 3 ppl + our tour guide. Rest of the tour were too tired after the 1st day. hahaha.. that's what the tour guide told us though.

This is the nephew of our tour guide. Rosy cheeks and so cutezy!! so hard to get him look at the camera. he's quite camera-shy. hehe.. good boy!

We visited the Sapa Market and guess what we saw!! YUCKS!!! i hate all these and they are meant for medication!! Do the guys need these? They are grosss!!!!

This plant will stop all babies-generation! and must be taken after love-making. well these are according to my tour guide who has never tried before.

After overnight train from Sapa back to Hanoi, we headed to Halong Bay immediately. That's a beautiful island situated outside Hanoi and it's 3.5hours drive away! That duration can get me to Malacca from Johor i tink. Anyway this is meant to be a relaxing 2D1N cruise and cave-visiting cum kayak trip. glad it turned out well! i enjoyed the breeze though can b a little chilly at night. the greatest part of this cruise is that we met ppl from different countries - a german couple, american couple, malaysian families and a singaporean couple who happened to be liping's fren in BSS too! the world is round afterall.

i think this landform looks monster-ous! don't you think so....

this is the Surprise Cave in Halong Bay and all the land forms inside the cave are a result of nature's erosion and what's left after water subsided and all sand and mud have deposited over years. i am amazed!
this is how Halong Bay usually look like in postcards.

i like the sunshine on sand in this pic =)

2nd day at Halong Bay was spent kayaking, sun bathing and lunching. indeed relaxing!

The floating villages and surrounding landscape.

People we met during the trip!

On our way back to Hanoi hotel, our mini bus entered into a small lane which is normally ok for 2 cars in opposite directions. However, it so happened another lorry insisted in approaching us in the opposite direction and that took a police to resolved! Traffic is not in order in Hanoi but seldom will there be a need for police to lend his hand. This is just how close we are to the lorry! about 10cm away only?? exciting 5minutes and people sitting in the coffee shop along the lane were in for a good show! the entire lane behind our bus were chalked up with motorists and cars. It takes alot of guts to drive in Hanoi. The entire bus of passengers applauded the driver subsequently!

Having checked into hotel we met up with Dar's vietnamese fren who happened to have returned to hometown after exams and she was our guide for 2 evenings. Felt so glad that she's around as she can help with bargaining and translating and also filling us with information and history of Hanoi.

We had dinner at this restaurant selling Pho (a.k.a. rice noodle) in well-done beef. Soup is super tasty. According to Tia, the taste of northern vietnamese food is less strong as compared to southern part of Vietnam and that explains my dislike for Vietnamese food in Spore as they are mostly in southern vietnam style. I really miss this food! The soup is tasty and probably lots MSG in it. But i still like it.

Crossing road in Hanoi is not easy for urban kids who are too used to orderly crossing in Singapore. It takes skills and hand-in-hand efforts to get one another across the road. This is just one of the trips i have made and not exactly the busiest but u can see how close we were to the moving traffic.

We watched the traditional Water Puppet show and thanks Tia for the treat. Was kinda lost in the midst due to language barrier but luckily Tia had filled us bit about Hoan Kiem Lake's history and that is depicted in the puppet show too so understanding was made slightly easier. But this traditional art is still very impressive.

On our 2nd last day, we were supposed to visit Perfume Pagoda with a tour agency we booked before departing for Hanoi. However, 2 sotongs boarded the wrong mini bus that was heading to the same destination too! Actually, dun think we are that sotong. The hotel staff sort of insisted that the tour guide who came to pick us was waiting for us so we assumed it correctly and got on the bus only to find out 45min later that we were in the wrong bus! The more maddening thing is that the tour guide told us he will arrange taxi to fetch us back to hotel BUT he didnt pay upfront to the driver! Gosh! The cabby demanded money from us and inflated the price by 10,000 dong! alritez that's probably SGD1 more only but intention to cheat is evident!!! Dame a**hole that tour guide! By the time we got back to hotel, the correct tour group had left without us and we abandoned Perfume Pagoda totally. So we planned our own itinerary and we were much happier that day as Perfume Pagoda is probably just another trekking trip and Hanoi is worth exploring too!

So we started with queueing for Ho Chi Minh Mausoleum to pay respect to the embalmed body of then Prime Minister Ho Chi Minh. Perfect embalment and it's worth the q which is only 10min long but they closed early at 11am during cold weather and 10am during summer weather. First time we felt law and order in Hanoi - we are required to queue in pairs and walk orderly on red carpet. No pics as security was very tight but we managed to get the security control ticket to take pictures outside the Mausoleum. Due to language barrier, we spent 30min trying to figure out what the guard was talking about and it took us 3 tries to get him show us what exactly does he want us to produce. It is indeed chicken-duck-talk (translate to chinese please). See how nasty i was when i finally got the ticket....

... and finally the picture outside Mausoleum!

We decided to visit HCM's palace since we had so much time to spare and not a wasted trip cuz it just felt good exploring around in foreign land. That's VND 10,000 only and we joined whichever group that has a translating guide haha.. i tink we need to pay for a guide to bring us around but we cheapopo so hang around with groups we dunno. hehehe

孔雀开屏 I think it's supposed to be good luck to be able to see a peacock like this! Maybe that's true =)

At the lake that accompanied HCM during his days.

Something strange about these sticks. They grew out from the trees and then from concrete!

One-pillar pagoda which i wasnt very impressed with cuz i was expecting the pillar to be some amazing support, maybe at the ends of the pagoda such that it can still stand. Dar rolled his eyeballs when i told him... hahaha... it looks just like another structure mah.. but respect respect! it's historic.

Next stop was the Temple of Literature where Confuscius was worshipped together with other scholars. This temple recorded much praises from the scholars for the then King and turtle is named as one of the holy animals together with unicorn, dragon and phoenix. That explains why the carvings are on turtle's body. I would find Hanoi as pretty much a Chinese-culture state of Vietnam as there's much resemblance to Chinese and its dialect. For instance, the prounciation of Vietnamese sounds like cantonese and they believe in dragons and confuscius teachings very much the same way as the Chinese do. I see many Chinese names of buildings along the streets too. Vietnam is very near to China though.
We rode a cyclo there which is equivalent to a trishaw in Singapore and it cost about SGD3 for a very short trip. Hanoi isnt' very big i would say. Smaller than Singapore i tink, if we exclude the outskirts. It's a must try cuz it's different.

We then visit a restaurant called KOTO just opposite Temple of Literature and was highly recommended by the Singaporean couple we met at Halong Bay. It's a meaning restaurant - KOTO meant Know One, Teach One. It's an organization that serves to educate selected young people who are interested in the F&B industry. All revenue of the restaurant goes to their training fund where they will attend 18 mths of lessons in Engligh language, culinary, etiquettes and other relevant skills. Staff in KOTO are mostly practisicing students in KOTO and they have very good learning attitude. The restaurant has 4 storeys and each storey has its own interior style and decoration and customers are free to choose which storey to dine in. Cool place! http://www.koto.com.au/

Tia joined us for lunch and she brought us to Prison Museum which is the war time prison including the period in Vietnam War.
We wanted to visit the Flag Tower but it closed at 430pm and we reached there at 410pm. Hence we only took the outlook of it.

Thereafter we took motorbike to West Lake and that was cool!!! Never ride on a bike before and felt kinda unstable but i still managed to take pic of Tia and Dar in action. Hahaha...

See how the locals played badminton at the predestrian pavement and the courts are set up by the government!!
West Lake is the largest lake in Hanoi. According to Tia, the entiree Hanoi orignally had only 1 big lake and Hoan Kiem Lake and West Lake was supposedly part of the 1 big lake but due to urban development, they have been divided into several areas of Hanoi and the land was built out of the lake. But West Lake looks peaceful and a hot dating place for many couples. People spent time fishing on a weekday evening and life seems so slow there. In fact, i felt that time pass slowly yet not feeling boring in Hanoi - a total different feeling from Singapore's pace. There's no need to rush for things and everyone takes things at own stride. I felt good in Hanoi as no one is rushing me for deadlines and i do not have to peep at the clock regularly.

Salted lemon juice by the West Lake is super good for thirst-quenching but it tortured the hell out of Dar cuz he couldnt stand the saltishness. Shall not post his reaction pic hahaha
Sunset at West Lake.

First bite of local food from road side stall. BBQ bread with sugar and butter! Good taste but clumsy Sand and Step dropped it while trying to take picture!! I shall try it at one of the BBQs up and coming. maybe HnF one... hehehe

More or less the day and the trip was approaching its end and Tia's mother treated us to Xoi Yen which is glutinours rice in Hanoi and they taste great!!!! With mushroom and chicken! like it alot but serving was too big for me!

Pic with Tia! Lovely girl who had been a great tour guide!

The trip has almost ended at this point and im glad all things turned out rosy. Love the experience and people i've met along the way. They enrich my life and cultural exchanges from different parts of the globe. They made me realise i am not the only earthling. I have many fellows and i am not alone. It's a trip well-explored and full of experiences and a new starting point for me and Dar. How i wish the trip can be extended and how i wish the happy days can last without worries.... those dreams will live on!

2007-12-05T20:23:00.001+08:00

durian cravinggggggggg

2007-12-05T11:34:00.000+08:00

Many years ago when i was deeply in love with British Pop with my fellow gfs who likes gallivanting at orchard after school, buying British magazines and q-ing up to see him...

Now this song adds a different tint of touch...

2007-12-05T11:02:00.000+08:00

This is what happened when i suddenly saw a bouquet of flowers on my laptop. Pictures speak a thousand words. The gush of emotions, feelings and memories drive those tear glands.

Thanks Geoky, Tanduny and Sebby! Love you guys for taking effort to cheer me up on 30th Nov. Flowers are not what i need, but people like you guys to stay by me when i need you all most.

This is how the flowers have blossomed on 2 Dec. Rich colours!

Will it blossom as wished?

2007-12-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

maybe some things ought not to happen yet things happen for a reason.
maybe some things are not meant to be yet i insist in stepping in.

looking forward to thursday evening, will there be an answer? will there be a resolution? will i know where to go from then? will my fate be sealed from then? will there be a new me from then? i wan to be a good girl, i wan to fit into the puzzle... but can u hear me? :'(

2007-12-01T01:07:00.000+08:00

can santa visit me ahead of time and bring me the present i long for? i do not have a chimney but u may knock my door to give me the gift before my face. santa, please come.

2007-12-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

forgotten 傻孩子

2007-11-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

call me the cat but i will not kill myself to seek answer to curiosity. it takes time to heal and will be there when u r ready to talk.

it's emo time as i begin counting down to my LD. there will b a total change of environment and working style. i look forward to the shorter working hours as promised yet i miss ever bustling RP, beautiful sea-view in ORQ and the lovely people in there. I miss how we get the G sign, i miss how we toll thru late nights in office, i miss the fun of gathering ppl for friday outings. i miss seeing familiar faces in ofc and make me feel so welcomed and happy. ok.. this is getting too emo. and somehow wishes no one will b in ofc on my LD simply because it can get unmanageable when meeting ppl you know who you are. there arent many left anyway.

if you can feel... i am praying very hard for you tonight. may you be blessed tmr.

2007-11-26T21:12:00.001+08:00

part of me really wish the training to end early or rather part of me wish to leave my table for another one where i don'thave to face SOMEONE!!

1. Is it my fault that there's not much space left? - Hello, how are YOU affected when YOU are sitting at one end of the table and occupying such a BIG space becuase of your mass??!! i didnt even utter a single thing when i have to make space for KL. what right do u have to complain YOU have NO SPACE??? blame it on your size 18 lah!!!

2. Am i supposed to apologize for giving up the last seat to someone else instead of YOUR fren??? Get the facts right, MR, i know nuts about the extra seat and must YOU keep harping on it??!! BE A MAN!!!

3. Do YOU have any right to comment on why is it wrong for me to resign??!! It's MY own happiness and that is none of YOUR BUSINESS so please SHUT UP!!! If YOU meant it jokingly, mean it that way!!! Upgrade your communication skills please!!!

4. What were YOU doing last week when we girls took turns to present and YOU kept quiet in YOUR corner pretending YOU are not part of the team and sulking over the lost seat???!!!!

5. What were YOU doing when KL presented continuously in one day and frequently on subsequent days???!!!! And now YOU have the guts to say that "I refuse to present and it's none of my business if the entire team get scolded!!!" WTH!!!!! What were your girls doing when we took turn to present?!?!?!!!!!!! Playing game is part of training package but they also hardly present and i dare say that we participated more than them!!! If you think by presenting half a day is noble act, KL is Majesty!!! WAKE UP and GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT, BOY!!!!

6. Do YOU even have the decency to realise that you can talk incessantly and YOUR voice is irritating!!!!!! Can YOU talk at the appropriate time and stop thinking that YOU always have the best solution!!!!!

INSENSIBLE, CHILDISH and PETTY!!!! and if you think i am talking about a girl, i beg to differ that it's a MALE!!! a MALE who needs to pick up more soft skills than to think so highly of himself technically!!!! Learn how to engage team members in a discussion and not mumble at one end and insinuating at other people hoping they catch the idea!!! RUBBISH!!!

2007-11-24T16:58:00.000+08:00

sand has finally taken the first step to make a change in her life. alot more steps remain. she felt a sense of excitement and motivation when carrying out the decision amidst uncertainty. yet she is looking forward to the coming stage of life yet maintaing the friendship she has built over the past 2 years.

turbulence describes her life now. she has many wishes and hope they come true soon. she looks forward to 6th December. she hopes things will clear. she yearns for the right answer. she prays for her species to be fine and strong. she wants everyone to be happy. she prays for someone to be strong and capable.

2007-11-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

memories.....

2007-11-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

can't some guys act more manly, more generously, more understanding, less petty, less male chauvinistic and less selfish??? he is not the ultimate i've met.

2007-11-19T23:01:00.000+08:00

Officially announce the first Parrots-Mousey Club general meeting!

Looks like it's time for all dust to settle. Praying hard that all things go well for everyone. Hope that YY is coping well with the loss too. There's an end to everything. Take things at own stride and see all in their natural course. Life will probably be more enlightening. Be strong pal!

So many pics outstanding!!!
1. Bday celebration @ Sentosa with HnF
2. Bintan photos from mae
3. 16th Nov outing pics
4. DnD pics from edwin, jeffrey, xiao qing, mouse... these are the ppl i rem not seeing their pics in my EY Moulin Rouge folder

2007-11-14T15:21:00.000+08:00

Picture Personality (Facebook Application)

Temperament
Flexible
Nothing seems to bother you - you sail through life crisis free. It's not that your life doesn't have its ups and downs, it's just that you handle everything without unnecessary drama and antics. You approach each day fresh, not worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. You are confident that you can handle anything that comes your way and experience has shown that you are absolutely right about this.

Interests
Thrill Seeker
You are interested in anything that is exciting and pleasurable. You're not afraid to indulge yourself - you live by your own set of rules and don't allow yourself to get hung on what others think. For the most part, you are independent and do whatever you please to do. Trying to stop you from doing something only makes you want it even more. At the end of the day - you live for life's most thrilling moments.

Amusement
Adventurous
It's a good thing that you are filled with energy and ambitions (that others sometimes find exhausting) because you're continually looking for a new adventure and exciting experience. You struggle with a continual feeling of restlessness which constantly pushes you to the next level of excitement. Once you have accomplished one thing, you are eager to accomplish something more exciting, riskier and distinguishable.

Passion
Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.

2007-11-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

This song is ringing in my head at the wrong time for the wrong reason. how ironic... used to oppose all the time... truly understand mouse and probably betty tooo... will only be fine when one song is completed nicely

2007-11-06T18:36:00.000+08:00

PROUDLY PRESENTS - EY EVENING MOULIN ROUGE 2007

Before and after!!!

2007-10-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Prince!

2007-10-12T15:36:00.000+08:00

Never Let You Go - Janice Wei Lan

the rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, i feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
my heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hole you left the mark all that i dreamed of now it seems so stark
tho i told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

if you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would sing to you and tell you i won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know, i'd never let you go

the way, you left me on the train
i don't know what to say i remember everything on that day
i can't believe we'd never dance
i just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance
tho i told myself won't hold my breath a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

if you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would sing to you and tell you i won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know, i'd never let you go

2007-10-12T15:31:00.000+08:00

i wish i had not called...........

2007-10-11T12:33:00.000+08:00

taken for granted!!!!!!!!
unhappy leave day!!!!!!!!!!
IRRESPONSIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SPOILT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANGRYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

never am i gonna try another brand of contact lens nor am i gonna accept a free trial pair from another contact lens brand/design of the same brand! something bad is bound to happen each time it happens; or am i destined not to be cheapo?? watever!

changed to a new trial pair of biomedics which is supposedly higher water content and more comfortable than my usual Biomedics 38. Prior to this, i tried several other brands selectively. But this time as it is from the same brand so i suppose it wont differ much from my 38. BUT, i had problem taking out my lens just now while bathing! goodness, i tried 45min in the bathroom and even borrowed my mum's hands to take it out but still failed! eventually it came out and i was super relieved!

why i selectively wear contact lens - cuz my eyeballs are quite small compared to normal person. and not all kinds of lens will fit. Biomedics 38 is the only one that can fit me nicely and comfortably and so have sticked with it since 6 years ago. And i really believe that it is THE ONE!

2007-10-08T23:47:00.001+08:00

so racism still exist in a modern society. maybe wat i encountered today wasnt really a racism but something like a respect for the "upper class"

visited Parkway Shenton @ ORQ in the afternoon to get some medicine for my sinus. Q was abit messy cuz many interceptions for patients who visited in the morning and couldnt wait so they came back in the afternoon. so the attendant slotted their patient cards in the Q. Upon registration, i was told i had 4 patients ahead of me so i wouldnt expect so long that it's worht my time to go back office and work for another 15min and then get called to say it's my turn soon. So i decided to stay! THEN, the slotting came in. OK, that's understandable, some clinics did that for me before. However, the q got so long that 4 patients became 7 patients ahead of me. What's worst, a lady attendant at the counter apologized BUT only to the ANG MOHS!!!! Any chinese along the way transparent to her!!!! Damn it! We are also your patients and my company is paying you for the consultation fees and you showed favourtisim!!!! Maybe my company pay u at discounted rate?!? Do the ang mohs pay you more??? Despite me going up to the counter THRICE to check on the number of patients ahead of me, i STILL dun get an apology. Yet when it's my turn and i walked in, she immediately apologized to an ang moh "very sorry about the long queue. the next turn is you." when i only got "it's your turn now". WTH!

so the taller foreigners appear to be more respectable just because they are minority and deemed better quality and deserve better service? a professional person in the service industry treats all customers equally! Be professional, madam favouritism!

2007-10-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

how much does time cost? can i buy yours?

im too tired to think anymore. turning in now

2007-10-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

was going thru recent photos and came across the following which happened while i was too busy to update blog.... they are self explanatory.... only thing that need explanation... this is for Minds Cafe... condemned!

the 2nd sheet follows... goes to show how pissed we were esp Keke

2007-10-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

major x-roads ahead me! doubt anyone can solve for me.

anyway!!! anyone been to vietnam??? and wanna share itinerary with me???

2007-10-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

trust me!!! it's an utter crazy day!!!! not many know abt this and i really cant believe all that are happening in a short span of 24hrs!!! i have to pinch myself to confirm i am not dreaming!
limited as to what i can disclose but im really in a x-road now!

okkk.. my laptop crashed!!! am i cursed with all digital appliances lately?? my office laptop crashed today without giving a sign! or is it already giving a sign. IT dept says it's gonna take at least half a day to retrieve data and they say TRY only. So let them resuscitate my laptop bah. There's nothing much i can do in office without a laptop so i declare off day tmr! haha couldnt find my boss at 5plus to inform him. wonder if he will be in distraught after hearing the possibility of losing all working papers. hahaha.. no la... i tink IT will do their best!
already having crazy thoughts .... if my files cannot be retrieved....... lol

okkkk had crab at melben tonight and dame cheap! 200 bucks for 4 crabs and 5 dishes! a treat to my buddy and my team members for being there during the toughest days and when the going gets tough, they get tougher too! really thanks to them for the support! so even tho im quite broke this month, i will still treat! dunno when is the next date when everyone can make it.

okkkk.. time to sleep and get ready! ssshhhhh

2007-09-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

weather is so freaking hot!!! and the forecast says highest is ONLY 31 degrees!! goodness gracious me... cant believe this! and i sweat like mad while jogging in gym this morning. the norm is not for me to sweat badly until after 5min of running after 2 min of warm up. but today was superb! not even into 4th minute and im alrdy "raining". anyway happie to jog 2.5km today after mae n miao fly aeroplane to potong pasir and bedok respectively.

hectic day manz! tuition for 2.5hrs today too! and it's the last of my moonlighting. i wan more students leh.. maths and chemistry! any lobang find me k! thanks!!

as i said, weather is so hot that cannot tahan. so went Icekimo for icecream. 3rd visit there and so cooling after tat!! all are home made ice cream. having tried belgian chocolate, durian, bandung, horlicks, blueberry cheesecake and cookies and chocolate, belgian chocolate and durian are still my fav!! belgian chocolate cuz by default they are bitter and i like dark chocolate!! durian cuz they are superb with real D24 durian meat!!! cannot resist manz but i cant eat durian when eating with HIM la cuz he doesnt like durians and the smell is so strong, all the more i cant eat in front of him. then the breathe oso.... dun say liao u all go imagine hahaha

tmr got crab!!!! so is sat!!! hahahaha will i die from high cholestrol?!?! nah.... hardly have the luxury to eat melben crabs 2x in a week! crab crab here i come!!

2007-09-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

back from a day out (waz new anyway) spent time on tuition and money! yes picking up tuition again. planning to do something with tuition in future, not in the coming 1-2 yrs though. guess im still happier giving private tuition; bonds built are stronger than with a class and it's more personal. perhaps im the kind who likes 1-1 and take things at a personal level so that everything is closer. oh well... just a thought. dunch even know wats gonna happen in the coming year. dunch ask me cuz it's not dependent on me; maybe it is but i really dunno wat i want.

anyway... spent shopping... grrrrrr evil evil evil!!! supposed to shop with only one thing in mind but end up spending close to 200 bucks. retail therapy!!! but i like all my purchases though! evil shop is part of the damage too! that adds my evil shop purchase to erm.... 11.. am i sure? actually im not sure either cuz it seems like i bought a lot of things from the shop. maybe i frequent there but the purchase is actually very little. haha

btw when has Pretty Fit up their target market ah?!?! one pair of shoes cost at least 60! omg!! or have i been working too hard that i failed to check them out. Goodness!! so ex that i couldnt bear to buy this white wedge... haizzzz i am still tinking of it!! i bet parrot is still thinking of the black necklace too... oopssss

btw i know what i want for bday this yr FROM HIM. anyway i have nvr gotten anythign i wished for from him lor... it's always something far far from what i wanted... something
- he has given before but not a decent one
- i hardly buy for myself, in fact i have nvr bought one for myself
- i can wear and has yet gotten a new one in 2 years
- i have been checking out but nvr get to buy
keep guessing bah... he'll probably not read my blog and this para will not get to him. 1 mth later shall match if i really get what i wanted (chances r slim) having no expectation is doing oneself a good deed.

... the feeling is so familiar again. it keeps coming back time and again and quite uncontrollable. haizzz is it my problem alone?? anyway... being random again

2007-09-28T18:37:00.000+08:00

wazzzz up manz!!!! life was like a roller coaster almost every week. now that the shitified job is coming to a close soon (keeping my fingers crossed that it better be closed soon!!), the roller coaster has turned into an anger-generator. Oh well... no one can understand how horrified the feeling is and seriously, nothing explosive happened just that tolerance level is reached. anyway... it's time to move on!

something light-hearted yet not so light-hearted:

finally got a new computer. ermm actually got it during comex which is almost a month ago but delivery was delayed plus internet connection was down for the past 1 wk plus i had no time to go fiddle with windows vista and the new computer. Alot needs to be done k... transferring files, download programs that i used to use, doing some personal settings and setting up internet connection was the worst that required 3 different personnel for help and singnet helpdesk is of utter no use! called them up twice to check if the connection is due to incompatible modem (since vista is new) and two different person got me to do the same procedures OVER AND OVER AGAIN. Eventually a technician came down today and adviced that my modem is working. Probably is the connection setting got problem and referred me to call back singnet helpdesk again! So i did as adviced but that "mud" guy has an attitude problem and said i should not be calling them! WTH, your staff told me to refer to you and now u throwing the ball to another person i.e. the modem provider! How many times must i tell u that your technician verified the modem is working properly!?!?! anyway, i got so pissed that i dint want to continue this over-the-phone helpdesk anymore and i called Prolink instead to see if the driver i downloaded is indeed not compatible with vista.

Bagus! Prolink's helpdesk is another good for nothing! no one picks up the phone at 11am! early lunch! in the end i called HP and they are the best!! and i really mean it! patiently the guy gave me step-by-step instructions to test the network connection and eventually gave me the solution to do system recovery. so i rather reinstate the factory settings and went Mac to download driver again. After that, it worked!!! So thankful for HP Helpdesk to give me the ultimate solution when Singnet helpdesk should be able to give the same advice too i guess. But what matters more is the attitude! I feel so much more willing to talk to the patient guy from HP than the helpdesk personnel from Singnet who deserves a poor rating of 4!

Eventually i got my connection, explored my new HP Pavilion 3180d Slimline desktop after a hell long 2months without home comp! still quite satisfied with my purchase despite the delay.

Now my table is so much neater cuz the slimline CPU saves so much space and now with wireless mouse n keyboard i can place them anywhere i like hehehe i have never feel so neat before lor! indeed a neater working environment makes one feels better each day.

Heee like my desktop picture alot!

Then i gave my cpu some clothing....

But i tink my camera is protesting. Seems like it is fighting with my new slimline for some attention. My lens is not working properly le!! shitified!!! must i really spend money on new gadget?!?!!?

2007-08-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

a song tat brings back loads memory..
teared while hearing it played over tv during campus superstar finals... not exactly my era kind of song but the lyrics are reflective of the happy times and moments shared with dearest frenz... images of ktv session singing this song sped thru my mind..
lastly for a special fren i wish will get back to me soon...

2007-08-19T02:35:00.000+08:00

phew... my desktop revived and gave me the sparkling entery to continue working till now. in fact been sleeping the whole of afternoon after lunch and tat should explain why im awake now. days have been turbulent and it will be more turbulent in time to come. 2007 is indeed not a good year. too many things have happened and yes im affected by many things. rem a senior used to tell me that audit makes one stronger. i have mixed feelings for that.

very much affected by something i came to know about lately and i feel really upset for a pal. at the same time, cant help relating myself to his situation cuz it's simply too similar or even a replica? yes, i see an image of him near me and im worried. i dun wish to have the same ending tho it's been spinning round my head for a long time. i still hope for best for him and hope he will stay strong and cheerful (i dun doubt his ever-cheerfulness tho.)

anyway now im quite lame la... literally lame. fell down last night and hurt knee cap and think my ankle is kinda swollen. not doing much to the ankle and cant really do much for the injured knee cap that bleeded quite a lot tho the wound not v deep. haizzzz told u these days haven been smooth for me ler.....

ever-sticking matter in mind - i wan to quit!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2007-08-07T18:34:00.000+08:00

foreseeing a lonely life ahead at least for the coming 9 months. This didnt daunt on me until a dream last night reminded of the boring bdays spent being an companion of projects. how often do i dream? once in a blue moon... looks like it's telling something......

2007-07-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

Fuming badly now. I feel like screaming at you. I feel like strangling you. I feel like i am abused. I feel so taken for granted. I feel like im a good for nothing. I feel like a minature who gets unnoticed at a corner. I feel so angry that i can't work. I feel so frustrated.

2007-07-14T01:50:00.000+08:00

looks like my fate with Harry ended since last year :(

2007-06-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

林宇中 - 空秋千

荡秋千
来回终究要停在原点
望太远
眼前幸福却忽略

晃半圈
圆不了爱恋
高一遍低一遍
风就吹散了永远

还想为你摇秋千
对着夕阳扮鬼脸
若月光再美一点
我们会否把手牵
还想被你碎碎念
当数流星的配乐
你却说你等不到天亮
空秋千陪整夜

秋千和我失眠
在你影子身边
这公园太想念
你无邪的笑脸

2007-06-07T22:45:00.000+08:00

sometimes things dun go accordin to plan n ya jux gotta adapt to it and make contingencies.
this doesn't go one way. do not expect one party to be the only one being flexible. make priorities and examine all factors encompassing the situation before things become nasty. it has turned nasty anyway.

semi-woken into reality, in fact, being slapped by reality yet has no idea to pull oneself out of the shithole. It's been too long a time such that the reluctance to stick head out and look at other worlds grew so strong over time. The past is a memory. It will probably stay sweet except for some bitterness. it ouched to be slapped awake.

2007-06-07T17:39:00.000+08:00

ok you teach me what should I do instead?

contemplating giving up but undecided.

2007-06-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

Moments from Tiger Live Post-Peak Chill out

A dinosaur age poster for Tiger.. ermmm kinda overrrrr ah

A showcase of Tiger's evolution since pre-independence days behind Yuan Mei and Moi...

... and this is how Tiger used to look like. Looks like canned food lorrr.

First tequila pop for the night.. courtesy of James Lao Da who went to "snatched" before they ran out

and come Han's boss with one tray of tequila shots *faint* parrots were high after that...

... and together with Han this is what you get... parrots that were beyond control

Group pic while Veron is still semi sober. Long long long time no group pic already though not complete but still some memories and more are coming up in June!!!

rest are mature content not for public viewing ooopssss

2007-06-04T16:36:00.000+08:00

c'mon c'mon c'mon

what's the world coming to?!?!?

2007-06-03T23:58:00.001+08:00

Alaska cruise for honeymoon!!!! yea yea

published!!! no return for you anymore. eating words make you fat!!

muahahahahaha

2007-05-31T21:49:00.000+08:00

Greg and Trina's Bday 2007

joined HnF co at Tanah Merah chalet on a Tuesday night for celebration (of cuz after my work when i have yet to begin my 3am 5am routine). SImple steamboat instead of buzzling BBQ cuz too troublesome. Somehow felt super tired that day, probably cuz of hunger when i reach there after a long journey from Buona Vista to Changi! Think i appeared with abit black face but turned fine after dinner hahaa... oH and i remember i was kinda panicky while walking from the
main entrance of the resort cuz the cab driver had dropped me of the guardhouse instead of driving into the chalets route. So i walked in alone in the dark with only 1-2 lampposts in the entire stretch of close to 200m. A man began walking very fast behind me and seems to be following me. Took out my hp and pretend talkin over the phone. After a while he diverted his route and i heaved a big relief. Ok i get over paranoid cuz of past experience.

2007-05-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

currently at work and is super duper sleepy and hungry and tired that i simply do not have much energy left to use my brain cells to think of anything related to work. okkkk in other words, i just need food!!!!!! been working late for past few nights till wee hours like 2am and 330am. guess that's just the life of auditors.

mastered the art of sleeping while standing wef this morning! wooooohoooooo leaned against the glass in train and realized i have slept a long way from novena till i reach raffles station. a result of over-work? vesak day is D Day to zzzzzzzzzzzzz dun wish to go out anymore

supposed to be a good date today but.....
..... pms-ing = bad mood = internal control failure = misunderstanding

2007-05-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

a funny shape cake for the graduation celebration of Joyce, Isabelle and Aloysius (errr think i spelt correctly ba). looks like Shou Tao hehe just a simple vanilla sponge cake with strawberry coating. Not too bad but abit sweet.

a cat we saw at pool side and scared of Aloy hahaaaa

at Sketches to celebrate Dar's results and maintaining his dean's list position. well done for all the bitching during exams n still scoring well .. grrrr so not fair!!!

2007-05-24T19:07:00.000+08:00

sand wants to eat McDonald Happy Meal this weekend for breakfast!!!
cuz of Donkey.... hehehehe

2007-05-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY ALFRED!!!!!!!! and my darling tooo hehehe

went bodycombat on sun and the instructor was super duper cute la!! haha he's darren..OH many darrens are cute tho... err except for the darren i know from PHS hahaaaa ooopsss PHS ppl pls shuddup k! anyway he looks kinda mixed-blood-ed and speaks with farnie chinese accent but very fluent in english during class. *start searching schedule for Darren*

anyway was at st james tiger live for post-peak chill-out session on friday. ermmm post-peak right but i dun seem to be in the category. Why does my peak seem to last forever???? that's besides the point. not many ppl turned up tho one of the first few ppl i saw is Mr Huat. More familiar faces at this chill out cuz switched dept and hence now more ppl but that doesnt spell very good things either. Knowing more seniors mean more vulnerable to toast mean more drinks mean more likely to get drunk. I wasnt drunk but had to down 1 tequila pop (courtesy of james), 2 tequila shots (1 from partner 1 from senior) and 1 beer (voluntarily cuz that's free flow for the night). Surprisingly i only felt high and not gone so that's alrite. Parrot and Han had a good time having fun on me and think accidentally a small tiny pc of my skin got peeled off during all the fighting and defending :( And some ppl got kinda high during the night and started pouting nonsense. None of what is said that night is true la. All for fun!!! Mae, we want pictures!!!

2007-05-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

Finally got time to visit my blog. Been ages since I last return home at this hour on a normal working weekday, enjoying the comfort of lazing in my room. Work had piled over the weeks and the bell curve is nearing the bottom bell. Cant wait for june for reason #1, this shit job is ending and reason #2 im going on leave!! I must say this job is shit cuz of the client and the company’s messy operation and not the team. On the contrary team had been great though I see many people come and go over the past 3 months. Late hours are inevitable. Kinda used to it anyway.

Work aside. Been visiting the gym regularly, usually on weekends and also procrastinated on doing work over weekend cuz gotta clear other jobs mah. Hahaa.. but what will come, must happen. Perhaps its time to clear them all this weekend.. haizzz.. didn’t I say work aside.. hahaha I digress….

Okok what else ah.. OH!!! Finally booked Bangkok and Chiang Mai tickets!!! Going with mae and parrot. And talking about the tickets I am so dame pissed at myself. Booked 1-way trip to Bangkok via jetstar and wanted to fly back from Chiang Mai but jetstar doesn’t fly back from Chiang Mai. So the plan was to take train to Chiang Mai, stay for 3D2N and return Spore from Chiang Mai. In the end, it somehow cost about the same (about S$40 plus more ex) to fly from Chiang Mai to Bangkok and then return Spore from Bangkok. The alternative plan is to take train from Chiang Mai to Bangkok if really want to save money but that’s way toooo time consuming as the journey is overnight for about 15hours. So transiting at Bangkok sounds better and we can cut short one day’s trip, so the cost will somehow be the same. BUT, while booking the return ticket from Bangkok, I mistakenly booked the wrong date!!!!!!! I went to book 23rd May 2007!!!!! WTH!!! Dame dame pissed off by me, myself and I when I found out. Thinking that I found out immediately, I may get to change at no extra charge but I over-estimated jetstar’s customer service!!!! They rejected me and I paid about holy 75 bucks more to change tickets for 2 people!!!! End up very upset on a Sunday night. Not that I am stingy with the extra charge but why did I make such a stupid mistake!!!?!?!? Grrrrrr call me stupid, call me blur, call me sotong, call me muddlehead, I still have to fork out tat holy 75 bucks for the ridiculous mistake I made!!!! Someone please kill me!!!! Trying to work out cost savings for air tickets yet end up paying more! Lesson learnt – Never try to be too calculative! I just want to save money if possible mah! OKAY, credit card has transacted, cant say much anymore! Just to let you have a good laugh!

Anyway!! I am still looking forward to the trip cuz I want my deserved break! Quite a number of good news lately. Bonus is creeping into pockets early and hopefully it will be within expectation. And jess helped me to buy Goong bear! YEAH!!! That’s Alfred!! Wanted to get the Alfred’ girlfriend too but that’s ungodly 400 plus Sing dollars! I gave up! Alfred already cost me 50 ish lor… it’s the first time I’m buying bear for myself! Haha cuz someone never expressed intention to buy me soooooo I will fork out own money to buy myself a bear and join HIS bear on the bear… Heeee Thanks jess! Must have been troublesome for u to carry the box around. I was so excited while talking to her and can’t wait to see the bear! Looks like I can only welcome my bear next week already cuz this weekend abit tight on work. It’s still a motivation nevertheless.
Oh and will be watching Pirates for free on 29th kekeke courtesy of EY. Still not too bad to be in EY laaah. Dance class has resumed and quickstep is so fun! We missed the first lesson of Quickstep yet managed to pick up in 15min with good guidance from fellow classmates who are at least 4 years younger than us! Hahahaha. Enjoying dance more and more. As and when got free time will revise the footwork in my mind. Mad Sandra is back! Will be spending quite a sum for a dance competition in August. Really hope to attend. Ehhh we not participating but watching the competition. Haahaaa

OH Phantom of the Opera was great, fantastic, brilliant and abolutely nicely done! I like the setup especially those around the stage, the songs and the dynamic stage props. Watching an evening show indeeds feels different tho it's still the same darkness once you are inside the theatre. But feels more arty-farty watching at night haaha (ok this doesnt really sound very arty farty) anyway given a chance will want to watch in Broadway. Any other famous musical in Broadway will be good. Im waiting for Miss Saigon though.

Okokok too long a post already. Resolution for the coming 2 months… spend less, eat grass and enjoy life! Simplicity is bliss!

2007-05-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

feeling terribly sick right now and it's been a long while since i last fell ill. to fell ill due to rain is even rare but it happened yest and condition didnt get any better when this morning was yet another semi-rainy day. read abt the poor HP ger who passed away as a result of overworked and her final few entries seem to have given her some premonition about her mishap. yet another good use of blogs whereby u can leave your last words and even tell some stories which may have been burnt with the cremation. perhaps i shud leave some trace of news before im found fainted lying in my room after a few days.

just took some pills to curb fever and giddiness. no thermometer to measure my temp cuz thermometer spoilt (any early offer for bday or xmas present?) but my body temp is definitely not low cuz i ouched when cold water splashed on the hot me. didnt visit the doctor cuz company doctor is not on my way home and i tot i would feel better after taking dinner. but i underestimate the rain and the clinic is rather far from my home and family doctor is closed by the time i tot maybe a doctor can help. hopefully the pills work if not tmr cannot go gym already. but given my strong willpower, gym tmr is shouldnt be a problem.

at times of immune system breaking down, the emotional part of one's body also began crumbling. it is only at this time that i wont feel pai seh over receiving tender loving care. a msg or a call of concern from people is aware of your condition warms the heart. it may even cure the sickness. yet not many people understands this emotional theory.

2007-05-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

Where is my pillar when i needed badly???
Insignificant me and be forgotten, ignored and missed out.
Selfish, ignorant and self-centered you are.
Tell me what to do.

2007-05-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

:( time to take paracetamol. long time no see this tablet and it's time to pay him a visit :(

2007-04-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

ever feel that there's so much you wanna say to someone yet the urge to tell all diminishes with time to the extent that you see no meaning in saying anymore; eventually silence replaces everything?

i try to be a pillar for other ppl, then where's my pillar?

having gastric pain now, cant sleep...

2007-04-13T13:31:00.000+08:00

Top 10 Ways to Live Longer

1) Drink Red Wine
Red wine is packed with resveratrol, an antioxidant.These work to protect your body against the effects of aging. One or 2glasses of red wine a day can help keep your body young.

2) Eat Dark Chocolate
Dark chocolate is a wonderful food that contains a large amount of antioxidants that protect your body from aging. Find good quality dark chocolate, learn to appreciate it, and have a bit of it each day. Eating chocolate may lower your blood pressure and cholesterol while providing an energy boost.

3) Smile
Smiling is a great way to change your attitude, connect with people and give benefit to your body. Like relaxation, smiling can work to counteract the effects of stress. By forcing ourselves to smile, we "trick" our bodyinto believing that everything is good, thereby reducing stress. Like a switch, smiling can actually change your mood. So put a smile on, even if you don't feel like it, and pretty soon you'll be smiling for real.

4) Have More Sex
Sex and touching are thought to be essential parts of health. Sex releases an assortment of beneficial chemicals in the body. Sex and touchinghelp us bond with others, strengthens relationships, and increases our own self-worth. Frequent sex may even extend your life by years.

5) Relax
Relaxation is the opposite of stress. While stress brings harmful health effects, relaxation helps our bodies to rest, heal and function better. By practicing daily relaxation techniques, you can train yourself to turn off your stress and replace it with calm energy. This will improve your blood pressure, heart rate and ability to cope with life's challenges.

6) Make Exercise Play
Physical games and sports are a great way to keep both your body and mind healthy. Simple exercise routines are great for maintaining balance, flexibility, endurance and strength. Group games and sports can give your mind a workout as well, as you anticipate other people's actions and how to work together. Find a game and activity that suits your level of physical ability and play often.

7) Sleep
Sleep is an essential body function. Most Americans do not get enough sleep. Medications, stress, illness and poor sleep habits all can prevent you from getting between 7 and 9 hours a night. The health benefits of sleep include more energy, better immune function, and more.

8) Spend Time With Loved Ones
Relationships are an important part of health. Not only do strong bonds with other people mean you will have help when you need it, being connected also means protection from loneliness, depression, and mental illness. Spend time cultivating your relationships with friends and family to improve your health and your life.

9) Solve Puzzles and Play Brain Games
Mind games are a great way to stay involved and engaged in the world. Games can exercise different parts of your mind and entice your curiosity. If possible, choose social games like chess or bridge that exercise your brain while keeping you connected with others.

10) Be Positive
Having a positive attitude about aging can add more than seven years to your life, according to researchers. Avoid the cultural push to glorify youth and regret each passing year. Find ways to to pleasure in your increasing age and enjoy greater learning, experience, and control in your life.

Not sure how true they are but they sound logical enuff to be worth trying.
Im practicing some already.

2007-04-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

OKay! picture tells the story.... i was kinda bored. been procrastinating at home for past few days cuz of the molar op and the mouth disability still makes me lazy. decided to head town for some lonely shopping and YES decided to buy some magazines and go Q for the crazy donuts! Q was indeed very long by the time i reached there and officially joined the Q at 3.20pm! "Dragon" (literally translated from Chinese) dint move for 30min and when it moves that means people in front had given up. And the "dragon" stayed stagnant after 1hour. oh well i continued to read my magazine. and i finished my magazine in 2 hours and read almost every single page, even the fine prints of advertisement who wears what gloss and what brand of clothes... really dame boliao right! while waiting in the "dragon" was listening to some storyteller behind me talking abt her 35-year-old bf and her bf's ex-wife and their 2 kids and how they celebrated bday at St James last night. I didnt mean to overhear, it was plain too close and hence loud, meant for anyone in front to hear. Nothing wrong *shrugs shoulders*

90% of the "dragon" is made up of females! and 95% of the female "dragon" are school kids or rather in the age grp of 20-30. Remaining 5% goes to tai-tais who either find spas and mahjongs passe or think that Q-ing is challenging to their calf muscles; and others include Chinese women who follow the Q just to see wazz up withe the dragon. Wonder how come there are so many free ppl ard. Ok im one of them too! heeee

Anyway the blueberry was superbly sweet! Double chocolate was good! feel a bit cheated by the the Peanut Butter glaze cuz the peanut butter colour blends in with the bread and differs greatly from the display pic. Yet still can taste the peanut butter la. Yet to try the rest. one box for myself another for Dr Loke and family.

Dr Loke : 吃饱饭没事情做!
Me : Obvious right!

Dr Loke seldom speak full sentence of Mandarin lor and he said that in one breath.... grrr rem posted in one previous post abt ah chuan q-ing for xiaohan and i yearned for that yet im doing the opposite! nvm at least Dr Loke appreciates and i meant to Q and reward him since exams are coming! but horrr this kind of experience ah once is enufffffff! Calf muscles can be better trained in the gym with my cali membership.

Oh did i mention what time i got my 2 dozens ------ 8.05pm! Do some maths rounding and u get 5 hours! Beat Mr. YY record of 4hrs, the longest i heard before breaking the record by me, myself and i.

2007-04-09T20:22:00.000+08:00

some guys are just CRAP!!! rubbish!!! gibberish!!! junk!!! useless and idiots!!!
not talking abt my bf cuz he's perfectly fine.. nono he's not perfect and im just glad he's one honest guy whom i can trust!

im just talking abt some ppl who deserves a good thrashing but yet again it's their businesses and not within my control... why bother to care abt them? im not the least close to them

2007-04-09T19:42:00.000+08:00

i wanna makan char kway teow, fried hokkien mee, hor fun, sweet & sour pork, crab bee hoon, sushi, crayfish pasta, carbonara, dark chocolate, and more and more and more.... grrrrr

so hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

isnt this deeeeeleeecious?!?!!?

aaaaaarrrrrghhhhh!!

2007-04-09T11:53:00.000+08:00

OKOKOKOKOKOKOKOK!!!!

a shout out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FINALLY GET MY BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (but in pain....)
isnt it pathetic to apply leave so that i can go for molar operation??? oh well im glad i have this break still cuz i get to sleeep 10-12 hrs a day!! heeeeee

been very healthy lately
- visited cali 2x in this month already and is inclined to bodycombat (hip hop will come next.. parrot n mae heard tat?)
- been drinking lots milk cuz been feeling knee pain whenever bend too much of my knees during dance class or gym lesson.
- been trying to eat fruits and abstain from oily food so as to maintain good complexion

Holllly me, i feel so healthy!!!

anyway a break from A**** is good cuz the finals is not foreseeable to be relaxing not that it's a relaxed job during interim. in fact there's a pure breed bitch in there that everyone cant wait to stepped on her, throw rotten eggs, pails of restroom liquid discharge and bang her head against the wall. smirk look on her face makes everyone puke! cant u early resign???

forget abt the most irritable woman... memories of my team is good!

stressful dinner on sat where bombarding questions come left right center. expecting more to come *HELP*
btw Si Chuan Dou Hua Restaurant uses MSG like there's no tomorrow.

did i mention abt joining the madness Q for Donut Factory??? 30 min into the Q and i decided to ditch Mr YY and head back to ORQ for serious work. Next time if i have more time will do so!

2007-04-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

failure

2007-03-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

why am i always hungryyyyyy???
why is it that no amount of food can feed me full???
why is my toungue always craving for food???
why am i getting thinner???
do i have worms inside my stomach???
am i illed???

2007-03-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

sand the careless and lazy ger just wants to be alone
she needs to straighten her mind
she needs to plan for herself
she needs to get a life
she needs...........

"dun do to other what you dun wanna get"
noted from a fren that this is part of engineering ethic quote
applies to everything anyone.
before u do something, please look back if you have done similar to others.
dun be the one being finger-pointed at
the world is round.. you get what you gave

2007-03-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

feeling abi heartache for loss of mae's camera. this time round no one played a trick on her *i hope* one suspect is the cheeky kelvin but he was so dead on fri night dun think he will keep it and kept quiet till now.. looks like it's really gone this time.

had seafood at No Signboard on fri night and then coconut drink at ECP hawker centre. that's the place of crime. anyway 旧的不去，新的不来 dun be sad k, mae! we are very heartache over the pweety pictures lost!

dinner on that night ws so so only, think my standard is now at melben crab le! will try james' changi v recommendation next wk (if possible) after the "rewarding" money come in. hehehe butter crab was utterly disappointing cuz it's not creamy kind but dry and saltish. chilli crab tasted much better the last time we went. oh well, i think some things are not meant to be carried out more than once. will venture something else soon... but Melben still rulezzzz!!!

2007-03-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

wonder how i can summarize this wk...

started of with a follow up job for a job that kinda hated cuz client can never produce things and take donkey years to give you what u want... follow up 1 day at bugis and tues in office. kinda not motivated to do this job partly cuz alone on job and client told me "im lunching alone too, but too bad, we cannot lunch with auditors, boss dun like." perhaps they have some black secrets... haizzz

since boss doesnt have plan for me as to wat to do for rest of wk, wanted to take leave rest (been not feeling well this wkesp the wisdom toothache). then boss say i cannot take leave to see dentist cuz fear of 2 wks mc in return... diaozzzz it's painful lehhh yet i cannot see dentist.. wat logic, felt such a poor thing and so sorry for myself. end up negotiated to a plan - my april leave will be converted to mc cuz i will only go for op only then! hopefully i can tahan till then.. pain pain *wails*

then wed went to a small job to help 2 a1s cuz they seem to be struggling and indeed they were la.. 2 a1s on a job with little guidance so tried to help lor end up acting senior. tats when the fear sets in.. 4 mths time is senior time and really dunch feel prepared lor. this time is only a small job so still alrite but im already working on sat to churn out file!!! imagine come senior for bigger jobs and u have to review, wrap up, guide and teach and bla bla bla all sorts of rubbish come tumbling in.. faint!! the sky would have dropped by that time!!! and team management is one big fat problem lor. mayb i look hao qi fu ah.. friend friend and no respect...
on hind sight, the suggestion during Training Needs Analysis is a good one - btw it was suggested to have a training on how to deal with assistants.. lolx

well i think shall take one step at a time...
last prayer before turning in...

... God, i need a good and better blanket!

2007-03-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

Happy Burdae to my darling a.k.a. zhu ren!!!

Think im smelling haze AGAIN!!! dunch think im the only one though i have a problematic nose which can hardly smell anything except very strong smeeeellll.
haze haze go away, may u never come again...

looking forward to FTB seafood gathering @ ECP this fri!!!
errr.. but ECP abit de farrrrr... who can claim cab?? hehehe

2007-03-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

First...

... The Waltz...

Then ...

... Foxtrot...

Next came...

... Tango...

More to come...

... Quickstep (more likely i'll step on His feet more often)...

2007-03-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

one more update before i end the day...

finally a member of California Fitness wef 1 Apr 07... nono not an april's fool joke!!
battle of the flabbiness begins in apr!! woot!

2007-03-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

read ah chuan's blog abt his vday pressie for ms small cold and his 75min Q for Donuts (none other than our dearest Donut Factory) for ms small cold simply bcuz she suggested him to Q for her reason being she dun wanna Q. It took her only 2 times (1 repeat) to register in his brain in like 5 minutes only!!! Kowtow to ah chuan! You r the man!!

How luckier can Han be, ah chuan is really not mu tou lor (not sure wat he does usu lah) but he's really nice and can tell the strong bond between u 2! He may be mu tou at times or insensitive (innate in guys already, cant change them) yet he ensures that making you happy is his responsibility. Afterall girls prefer to seek someone loving and knows how to make you happy. Ger, u got the man already!

C'mon lah... some things i said nvr get registered in someone's brain, not even at the membrane! They can only appear in my dreamz lor!!! i mentioned abt the Q to someone and "madness" was the reply.... Grrrrrrr

Wonder wat will he do for proposal.. omg!! i can't imagine....

2007-03-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

It's International Women's Day!!! Cest La Vie!! Girl Power!! hahaha nuts!
Received an interesting sms today...

"I love you! Today is worlds best sister's day. Send this to all your sisters even me if i am one. If u get 7 responses u are loved. Love u much!"

I forwarded and an interesting reply i got...

"I love u whether its sister's day or not."

awwwwww... isnt that sweet!!!
Guys, please learn to flaunt some beautiful statements at your partners!

2007-03-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

bet many sporeans felt the tremors this afternoon.. at least once tho i felt twice and the 2nd one made me kidna giddy after tat cuz it's longer. 11-ish the plates began shaking at sumatra and spore n m'sia got affected. First time in 23 years experienced the shakes though it ha happened umpteen times before but always when i was home. perhaps my flat is not high enuff to feel much. i was at 18th floor at raffles city tower tho and overlooking swissotel from my workstation and saw it moving. haha kinda scary to feel it shaking and the window blinds moving.

EY announced evacuation at ard 4pm kinda welfare huh... but in consideration of the severe shocked experienced and the neighbouring construction going on, it's safer to evacuate i guess.

nevertheless may the victims back in sumatra be blessed.

2007-03-03T20:45:00.000+08:00

why is my blogger dashboard in CHINESE?!?!?!?!!? @#@$*%%W#@

shall talk about something light hearted after the previous post of the BS and the chinese blogger dashboard. caught up with a JC fren today for lunch after like erm 3 years?? oh well, it's always the thought that counts... i hardly keep in contact with jc frenz except for a few hard core ones. hmmm... im happier in uni and sec school days anyway.

visited a japanese restaurant at far east plaza called wasabi tei. the chef was famous for his grouchyness. indeed true cuz the chef scolded a customer. shop space was pweety small, like normal far east shop lor cannot squeeze too many people de. the restaurant is forever fullhouse and it can only house like 18 customer at any one full time. so foten gotta Q and the Q is always long but we had so much to chat and it ease the waiting pain. serves very authentic japanese food, very fresh sashimi and big serving. BY tried the saba and it was fantastic manz! saba was very very fresh. i tried the chicken and egg bento, serving is real big (imagine sand says serving is huge). it comes in sets so there's miso soup and fruits. had a very fulfilling lunch.

coming to the story abt the chef. it's very grouchy even at customer, no smile no warmth no friendliness. instead im not put off by his grouchyness but some bit of respect. a customer walked in wanting to chop seats for his fren but the shop is very small and chopping seats is not allowed cuz of the long Q. so which means u come must be in full number, any late comers will have to Q separately. so this customer insisted in chopping an extra seat but the chef is very unhappy abt it. so he scolded the customer and the customer talked back saying things like:

Chef: Cannot chop seats
Customer: My fren is coming. I read newspapers.
Chef: Sit down already must order.
Customer: I order first lah
Chef: Eat until so bu gan yuan den dun eat. I dun wan do your business.
(Customer continues flipping newspapers)
(Chef continues rattling about not cooking for the customer.)
Chef (to his assistant): So xing ku, i dun wan do his business.

But the assistant continues to serve the cold dishes to the customer cuz the customer's fren has arrived. I was stunned by the commotion though my fren had told me about the chef while Q-ing. Im not put off by his customer service but i respect him for abiding to his principles. Somehow feels that he used to learn authentic jap cooking skills in jap cuz he gives me the feeling haha. feels that he respects jap culture very much. another customer footed the bill and told the chef's assistant "tell him to smile more". The chef heard this comment and gave the customer a nod acknowledging his advice and appreciation but still.. without a smile. Well, if he's really bad tempered he would have given this 2nd customer a good thrashing like how he did to the first customer but he dint. So i guess he's still very rational. i do respect him cuz his food taste not bad and as long as u dun offend his principles, meals can b satisfying.

i couldnt finish the rice and was quite afraid that the chef will scold me for wasting food. afterall rice in japan is very ex. so i was kinda scared of that... lolx but my fear proves unnecessary.
bet i will visit this place again but must afford to have more time than usual :)

2007-03-03T20:41:00.000+08:00

"get your ass here right now" - BS

2007-02-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

why is it that i often have to zip my mouth?? Why do i often have to process in my mind the consequences of blurting things?? wouldnt mind zipping though for 3 reasons - kill my curiosity that lingers for long, build better r/s with ppl and knows more than what i quest. i will keep to promise despite all that...

why is that people are becoming more unpredictable and incomprehensible? could think of reasons to explain for certain things that they do yet can hardly convince myself esp when someone close somehow seems distant to you. cheeem neh... but yah... u seem very close to someone yet you know empty abt the person except for what appeared on the surface - superficial? plastic? whatever synonyms u can associate it with.

enlightened by another life logic - who appeared to you may not be who he actually is. ok i know im lagged in understanding this simple ideology but trust me, if you gain my trust, i can believe every single word you say. but, if my instincts get the better of me, things said get discounted and heavily discounted if doubts about you are hovering low and you are close to me. call me gullible, innocent, i dun really like to doubt people. of cuz pls exclude those braggarts who are obviously treating me like a 3-year-old kid and 9.5 out of 10 statements are never serious.

breach my trust and the scorpion is let out. not to worry, i've yet reached the stage of being betrayed but the feeling is nearing today and i shun them away.

2007-02-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

3 little bear bear that my VT gave us on V-day, little cutesy!!!

this is mine!!!

hands on hands... arent they adorable. the background should be familiar to some people though i cropped the logo out.. haha

2007-02-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

wanna fly kite (literally). never tried before and suddenly have the urge to do so, watching my kite flying with lodas freedom while i run with it in the vast grassland... *continues dreaming something that will not happen*

2007-02-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

in extremely foul mood.. mood would be better if i had know the reason why...
not pms for sure... just feel like screaming at the sea....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

late night on thurs only worsen it cuz body is heating up due to lack of rest.. staying up till 5am to work non stop is just 2 hrs from my record... but i must say this time the effort is definitely worth it. i have no complaints about that

will miss Jaz much... take care gal!!!

2007-02-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

Gong Xi Gong Xi to all!!! It's the oink oink year and im advised not to change job! what a sad and discomforting advice but i will hang on.. if possible till next year... jia You!!

3 days of public holidays only! wished i can declare non-declare one... joked with senior if tmr can clear ot but i was wishful dreaming la! but on the dot is wat she speculate... yea yea keeping fingers crossed!

made small winnings @ Cyn's place.. felt bad winning 3 but CNY and i heard it's bad to reject winnings esp on CNY so i took.. we shud have more mj sessions manx!! i offer my place and cyn's place is good too.. always full of food!! heehee

something abt my V-day; good day turned bad... my team was all hyped for v-day for some reasons la lolx... and we got released on time! dinner took aeons to come and the waiters were smiling at us with guilt cuz our orders were slow. well they are lucky to have met us cuz we were not the fierce types who demand quality service, afterall it's understandable the crowd on v-day.

but bomb came after the dinner while walking to fetch the car and we saw the tooopid summon on the wiper! dame it! Dar's face was pweety black after tat cuz tats the 2nd one for the wk... haiz... perhaps we shud write in.. it's obvious the "xue te" attendants chanced that v-day is a good day to meet their quota and so we were one of the victims lor. parked outside landed property and does tat mean every hse who has their 2nd or 3rd car parked outside gets a summon everyday?! does tat mean all visitors there gets a "pressie" every time?! non-sensical laaaaaa *sayang Dar*

somehow the stalk from the restaurant blossoms better than any stalk from the bouquet.. hehe.. beginning to feel negative and numb towards V-day cuz it's getting over commercialized and why only celebrate on v-day. it's only a day with valid excuse for girls to be pampered with flowers and guys to spend on flowers that are overly priced..not worth it. and anniversary deserves more and better celebration than v-day which belongs to every couple. anniversary is much more meaningful isnit it, it belongs to only 2 people and couples ought to spend more effort on anniversary than v-day. and flowers on v-day is ridiculous. im not rejecting flowers on v-day but can be better spent. rather receive flowers on normal days on higher frequency than on v-day alone. hehehe.. a theory that Dar finds it interesting. hahaha... rather u buy me something practical tho abit of romantic flower-giving at times can be sweet lor... lolx

red roses are still prettier somehow.. this is still blossoming very well after 7 days! not a single petal has fallen

2007-02-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

just what went wrong with the shopping nature in me?! been out shopping for CNY clothes for 2 weekends and i bought pathetically a top from Chaos, a black dress from some small stall (which is obviously inappropriate for CNY) and a dress from dear GG<5!!! size="4">
luck at shopping been low cuz Lver doesnt have any extra piece for the top i like at 2 branches somemore - one at westy Vivo and another at central Bugis. Just wat did i learnt from this shopping experience - never shop too late and too last minute and dun shop with a purpose. At least dun give me a deadline to buy or a purpose/event to buy cuz i can hardly find anything. Let me buy when i feel like when i see something i like and be surprised and elated by my buys at end of the day. With too short a time, i dun bag home anything.

Oh well, last weekend's buy wasnt too bad cuz i bought a dress i liked quite a lot BUT it was slightly steep! Holy number 146 appeared twice. Dear GG<5> made me splurged my first 146 and Crystal Jade marked the second one for a healthy 7-course set dinner! No intention to spend so much for CNY clothes but i simply cant find anything i like, not that i have expensive taste (ppl who know me, i dun go branded, i go for FEELING). like means like, dun like means even if it's branded i oso hate it to the core! Luckily dinner was splitted among 3 other dearies, still not so painful. but sat was kinda painful for the heart cuz i feel so broke!!! and Parrot is not saving my pocket either cuz of her persuasion saying that the dress is very nice! i didnt buy on impulse but after much consideration. Im supposed to be saving for big event...

SANDRA LIM... WAKE UP!!! (after CNY, i will start saving, i promised!)

but still, the first 146 wasnt quite welcomed by Dr Loke!!! Bashed him for saying it's a normal dress ("cuz it's the kind of pattern i like'' - quoted from Dr Loke)!!

To Mr. Loke WY: No second glance for u even if u want!

2007-01-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

woohooooo!!! weet!!! long time no blog. back for a while.
ever since my last post on daren, think hos performance going downhill cuz he didnt do that well for the finals! but still, i give him my 5 cents worth and voted! haha
he's in and next sunday will be great!!! think im gg nuts over him liao.. nvm.. im not alone! i still my parrot!

well well... besides indulging in Daren virus, my hp really kena virus liao. at first thought my pc is old and usb cannot support the newer version of usb of my hp. but i understated my pc cuz the same problem happened when i tried to copy photos from my hp to laptop. laptop restarted itself too! haiz... need to visit m1 shop liao! wished i could visit m1 for the purpose of buying a new hp but no! wat few more months cuz no $$$ :(

coming to work.. been great manx!! love this job cuz u get all the best combination ever! it can't be better! team is good, with good senior, appreciative and understanding; VTs are nice, chirpy and entertaining. client is fabulous, friendly, warmth and respect auditors. hahaa. Manager is good too - not very pushy and is concerned for the team! weeeeet!!! wished i can stay in this job longer hahaha my february shall b a happy one. still trying to find out my senior's age. hhaaaa

haven been meeting with frenz except for FTB for YM's bday celebration last sat and we had dinner in the same restaurant as RAIN!!! im not a fan of him la but he's just a few steps from us la!!! mega star, u wished you can see mah! all of us (just the FTB gals), tried to visit toilet in hope of peeping into his room but the guard outside the room guarded us.. irritating! haha

returning back to dance class tmr! yea yeah.. already said my senior is very nice le.. allow me to go for class in the midst of peak! BUT mgr coming field review on wed, tho senior is not anxious, i am! mon early release means tues have to churn the files out, means late nite, means client has to stay with us, means we very pai seh to make them stay late cuz they not the stay late kind yet will still accomodate our hours. super duper nice until dunno wat to say!

specs broke and made a new one, meaning financial outlay... haizzzzzzz
nvr broke my specs in entire life lorrrrrr *ahem* someone's fault! boooo!

everything else is more than good!! heeeeeeeeee *shy*

2007-01-06T18:57:00.000+08:00

i need a very strong & long rope to pull me back from fallin over Daren Chen.

男人不坏，女人不爱

a punk with deep dimples, woooot!!

courtesy of Project Superstar

2007-01-06T17:30:00.000+08:00

finally a sat that i am home! getting kinda tired from going out for the past few weekends. it's also time for me to rest over weekend to prepare for war in the coming weeks! not expecting good time in the coming week cuz the deadline is tooooooo tight for the huuuuuuuge amount of work we gotta do! god bless sandra lim, please!

guess 2007 didnt start off too well for me. saving the details. but just dunch feel lucky, lousy instead!

2007-01-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

For those who understand chinese and can hardly understand what Aaron Kwok is singing (as usual) and is willing to read chinese after many years of lost touch with our mother tongue... here's some help

爱情 - 郭富城

听窗外的雨它滴滴嗒嗒打在窗口
象我思绪反覆的把你想念叫做爱情
我好想证明从不在一起我还是不能停止想你

我对着玻璃轻轻的吐气再用手指写着爱你
恰像是一起去寻找叫做爱情不需要证明
对白很干净我唯一想说只有我爱你

咖啡湾外面的雨境我们一起向前进
所有画面都很熟悉
我打开口袋里的记忆充满的都是你
平凡又显得神奇

我喜欢说爱我的你一样的对着玻璃
用呼吸吹醒平淡的水气
苦了也变得多麽甜蜜
再有蓝的天气借着雨点说爱你

看窗外的你拥抱着爱情我们一起继续前进
听风中的歌谱写歌颂爱情你我在和音
对白很清晰会是个美丽的结局
依旧是爱情你让我欢喜让我执着让我安静
不必有太多理由叫做爱情因我只要你
对白很干净我唯一会说只有我爱你

2007-01-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

On the first day of 2007 ger frenz celebrated Ad's bday and we had a splashing good time though the dinner was kinda spoilted by the sudden change and hiccup that came with it. Reserved a table @ Jumbo ECP and goodness it was full house (as expected) yet the queues were chaotic! Yesh queueSSS - too many queues and too many impatient customers yelling and rushing for their reservations. some waited for their table for more than an hour. The weather didnt help at all as it started drizzling after a while and many, including us, stood in the rain before a big brolly was mounted at the reservation counter. Reservation system is indeed not very systematic cuz the lady at counter did not give anyone a reservation number such that it is difficult to keep track of which customer came first even though they are reservations. There was no jotting down of customer details and one angry customer questioned the lady if she can remember who is in the queue. The lady replied that all is in her head. I kinda doubt that but come to think of it, ppl who are in this line are trained well to remember details. Perhaps she is right.

While me n Ad wait at Jumbo for our table the rest splitted to other restaurants nearby to try our luck and walaaa... we got a table at Red House!!

dusk taken in the car at ECP

chilli crab @ Red House. Kinda sweet but still not too bad with the buns.

Chilli crab cant go wrong with buns anyway :)

Coincidentally 4/5 are in black and jeans. Only 1 odd one.

Proceeded to Liquid Kitchen @ River Valley and celebrated bday there. played something like 7-up there but this is more challenging. multiples of 3 must be a "fast" and every multiples of 7 is a "ball" so a number which is both a multiple of 3 and 7 is a "fastball". It went on to 150 and our brains were getting slow and not working right especially with the drinks, we were not sober anymore! And i cant post anymore photos anymore cuz they strongly objected to me doing so. Thus, there's only the light of hope to offer.

the table candle @ Liquid Kitchen