Sunday, May 11, 2008 12:46 AM
why is it that my intended messages nvr seem to get to you? am i not explicit enough or have you been ignorant of my statements? told myself so many times before calling to control my temper and emotions yet the attitude presented to me could not curb my temper low enough. am i too short-tempered or did ou purposely do so? at a bad time like this, it just doesn't help by exchanging fireballs. i tried to control... really!! can u tell?? can you tell that i have changed??? i am making less noise despite feeling utterly ignored and neglected for months! despite making time out to stay indoors, i still put on a happy front! and perhaps that's why nothing seem to be wrong, nothing seems necessary to be done to make up to my lousy feelings all these months. i am definitely not understood even when you said that i dun understand. life is short. birth and death are a cycle. instead of getting upset over the end, why not take a stand from another angle - it's a relief from sufferings. i am concerned yet i am kept out behinf the wall. someone tell me what i should do now! it's too straining on me and also you. i just need a little respect, a little indication that you acknowledge my presence. if you had not taken on so many responsibilities, would things be better? would you have spare a thought for my feelings before taking up the duties? would you listen to me, with your heart?? i tink you are heartless, only when facing me!