Tuesday, May 23, 2006 12:06 AM
I pray for a simpler life, with simple thoughts, a simpler world whereby people treat one another sincerely with utmost gratitude and acceptance. I pray for the wisdom to make wise decisions. Seldom have i regretted any decision i made. More likely i chose not to look back at the decisions i made for there's something called fate. Guide me to my fate. Bring me to the route to happiness.
Yes, i find pleasure planning for wedding yet i find sense of lost looking into the future.
I feel concern yet i also feel embarrassement in public.
I appeared strong yet im soft inside.
I appeared quiet but i feel so much to talk to you. What's lacking is my courage to speak. I am passive in nature.
Hold me yet i fear for eternity is not there to stay.
Sacrificng makes me weak for i feel bad, it's not meant to be this way.
Been thru loads of processing and yes im still at crossroad whereby the knot is in the middle, remained to be untied. At end of the day, I still suck at expressing emotions. I should be banished to the faraway land.
The old Sand needs to get a facelift. Give her time to resolve, to reconsider and to change for the better.