Saturday, February 11, 2006 10:53 AM
again im faced with a cross road waiting for me to decide a turn, left, right, or centre im lost. Im very very lost... it's so sudden... should i fly to Beijing anot? gonna take place in 10 days time and be 1 mth period and i have no idea whether i can leave my mum here alone for 1 mth. tats the greatest worry tho some other minor ones are like it's tat Beijing job, it sucks big time.. jobs are nvr easy especially with this industry but having to face the pressure of worrying the family and deal with the stress in a foreign land.. sigh.. luckily im still given a choice but it's not nice to reject a job at my level ... it's a good exposure and get to learn things in various ways, emotionally and technically... grrr... so many factors to take into account.. if only i have been put in the job as part of the plan i wouldnt have been stuck here.. the fact that im given a choice stirs me up.. ?????????????