Sunday, August 28, 2005 11:01 PM
Feels like my blog is becoming my hide-out. Luckily not many people are aware of this secluded hide-out except for some of my dear ones. There are times i couldnt and dont feel comfortable talking to anyone and this is the place i wan to channel my emotions to.
To my dear Hide-Out,
Feeling so sick and tired. Body is aching but some other part of body is aching like mad too and driving me crazy. Just couldn't explain the frustration in me for past two days. Fri was such a lovely day for me.. hang out with wonderful colleagues and had high time and fun. But the lovely days never last, in fact they always end with a painful start. Praying and wishing and hoping that the worst thing i have ever imagined is never going to come true. Just somehow we couldnt grow up and just so happened that we have different backgrounds. Seeing things from different pint of view brings out the drift and being too sensitive is too bad a thing at times. Dont feel understood but abused. Having too many responsibilities drains me. Having to take care of people makes me feel awkward. I don't want to be in the position I am in now but i have no idea how i can get out of here. But seems like i have been trying to escape from reality.
The solutions are staring right in my face but i just couldn't bring myself to carry them out. Whats wrong with u, Sand??? Just be honest, be frank and embrace everyone with open arms and open heart and be yourself!!! You are a sentimental freak, you have abundant love and care for people around you but why do you find it such a chore to show them??? What's wrong??!!
Sand