Saturday, July 23, 2005 8:31 PM
I may be utterly pissed earlier on but i am now writting with a peace of mind and i swear i have been looking at the matter objectively.
A happy day turned dull because of HER!!! WTH!!! Stopped screaming at people when u wanna check things out.. i doubt in the first place she had intended to check things out, she merely wanted to scream at me and claim that her image has been tarnished!!! So right from the very start, the conversation had began with an accusation and what a ridiculous thing to have happened. I haven been telling J abt HIM cuz im not in the first place close to him. Doubt we ever conversed more than 20 sentences!!! And pls search your soul what have u told me abt HIM and HIS gf before and what wrong have i ever done by telling J HIS gf's name???!!! With close to nil knowledge about the two of them, how personal can this matter be?? Is a name very personal??? And stop accussing me of divulging other people's secrets and personal matter cuz i have nvr done so!!! For goodness sake, you used to tell F about us, you even tell him things that are considered very personal to us. Excuse me, you think that's alrite and we are happy about it??!! Have you ever think that we may not be comfortable letting him know?? Will not blame you if I am close to F but that's never the case!! Please speak for yourself before pointing the finger at me!
I have absolute no idea what have J and the rest did and it's utterly beyond my control what people will do. How bad can it reflect on you??!! Whether it is reflecting badly on you, go explain to HIM for Christ's sake! If he is sensible and reasonable enough, he will objectively judge who's right and who's wrong. You have not been telling me things about HIM and his gf, why are you guilty? You mean HE has never expect you to tell your good friends about HIM?? Given your relationship with him, HE must have been a dumbo to have not suspected it. Close friends trust one another that things said will not be twisted and messages will get across in the right way. I honour you with this trust that's why I have not been commenting about you telling our personal matters to your other close friends. And please do not ever breach this trust!
It's a pain to be the subject matter of other people's gossip especially when things have been distorted. I have been a victim of such gossips and i understand how terrible it feels so it really makes no sense for me to be so unethical to divulge other people's personal life. Moreover I am nvr close to HIM, makes even no sense for me to comment anything about him cuz i dun know him personally. Dont treat me like an idiot as though I do not know what outght to be said and what not. Grapevine hurts and i never wish to be involved in the twisting process. I have yet to hear from J about the matter at this point in time but I am determined to clear the air cuz i dun wan to be ACCUSED!!! Even if you dun mean to be accussing, please go reflect on how to relate with people and dun take things for granted that bcuz we are close and you can scream at me before processing things objectively in your mind. Wake up!!!
And for HIM, i really dunno what's wrong with people talking about you and your gf. She made a presence on that day and we saw and out of normal human behaviour we talked about it for sure. I mean that's perfectly normal, isn't it. Moreover, I merely mentioned her name and I swear nothing beyond that! I will not be surprised if my friends are curious about my bf when we appear together for the first time in front of them. That's just the logic!!! If you cant even take this small little harmless gossip, how are you going to take even worst office politics that are forthcoming. Wake up!!!
I do not claim to be a victim in this matter. Neither do I claim innocence here. I just want to fa1 xie4!!! What wrong have i done to deserve your scream and accusation?! To play safe, don't ever tell me anything in the future.
Enough of the unhappy matters. I went back to PHS today for the annual carnival, after 3 years!! Brought back so many wonderful memories about the past carnival that we were involved in. Still remember that we used to sell ice cream and drinks during the carnival and I think we emerge to be one of the top earners. Haha.. I always lose my voice after the carnival cuz of the crowd and I gotta scream at the top of my voice to co-ordinate with the rest of the class. And it's always during the carnival that I see my classmates bonding together as a class to bring glory to 4Faith. Wonderful days manx!!! Enough of that.. Anyway met Mrs Teo and Mr Sim in PHS. Most of our teachers have left the school and we only managed to take photo with Mr Sim and cant post it here cuz Dar had took my camera. Will post it soon. Mr Sim is gonna dedicate another 2 years to PHS depsite having reached his retirement age in February. He brought us around the new campus and felt like we are following a tour guide.. Haha. If only the old campus is still around, will definitely take more photos to bring back memories of where I used to study and have fun in school, our classrooms where we will throw chalks around and hang dirty PE t-shirts. Haha.. These memories will always stay cuz secondary school days are the best times of my life thus far. BE it personal development morally or in studies, I began learning from secondary school days. If my secondary school teachers have not given me the chance to prove my ability, I may not have graduated with a degrees today. Because of all the happy and unhappy incidents in PHS, I have emerged stronger. Began to suffer from gossips since Sec 1 and yes it's never a good thing. Yet I have also known great frens from PHS and my dearest gfs are from PHS. If not for PHS, I would not have known you gals and lots more. Love you gals lots!! We learn along the way right!!!
Anyway played mahjong at ZL's house after lunch and his house was a mini entertainment centre for us. 2 mahjong tables and movie marathon in the living roon and PS playing in his room.. Haha.. doesnt it sound like a all-in-one entertainment centre... Think mahjong is gonna be a weekend activity for us liao.. Wonder if this will continue when all the guys are back to school by mid august. In the meanwhile, there are 2 more weekends to go.. so let's grab hold of these golden weekends!!!