Friday, June 03, 2005 12:59 AM
Right from the early mornning, I was already at Granny's place waiting for my youngest cousin to arrive cuz it's his first month today. Oh he's called Jaren.. nice name i think. Well.. he didnt appear until noon time when i had already waitied for close to 3 hours and was about to leave for movie. During the 3-hour wait, Will said WW couldn't make it for movie this afternoon but i had bought the tixs the day before and paid for it, so if WW dun appear then the tic will go to waste you see.. so last minute tried finding a owner to the ticket stub. But eventually the ticket was wasted!!! Then Will said he last minute giving tuition so cannot join for lunch. Another last minute again!!! While replying sms, got the feeling that the day is just not smooth la.. too many last minute matters. And indeed it was quite true la.. Yang called to complain about his results. He didnt sound too good. And results these kind of things, once finalized there's really much you can do about it. So I didnt really what to say but just let him explode and release his frustrations.
For the past three years of Uni studying and meddling with exams, I have learnt a lesson - results do not commensurate with the efforts you put in. This leads to the theory of having too many uncertainties in life. What goes on in the marking room filled with exam papers markers, we do not know. We will never know how they adjusted the grades and exactly how well/ bad we fare, we wouldn't know. Left with so many uncertainties, sometimes it's difficult not to leave things to fate.
Expectations also kill!!! Does that explain why perfectionists always suffer from mental breakdowns??? Get a grip with ya thoughts and emotions, self-adjustments to one's emotions and expectations are probably the best healing ailments. I believe that by adopting personal set of measurements unfettered by others' opinions, one can be contented with the results.
Humans are never satiable so let's embrace life with contentment.