Friday, May 06, 2005 12:36 AM
When I need THIS pillar, THAT pillar comes around.
When I need a pair of ears, it only concentrates on hearing and not doing anything else.
Never depend on others cuz YOU are the only one who can help yourself.
No one understands YOU more than yourself.
At the end of the end, YOU can only fall back on yourself cuz no one else has a better incentive to protect YOU than yourself.
Life is all about fending for oneself.
Since birth, babies learn to crawl, to walk, to talk, to write – all because humans need these fundamental skills to survive for their own sake. Friends can turn their back on you, let alone strangers who have no obligations to YOU. After all, each of us needs to be strong before we can protect someone else. Too much protection keeps you in a harbour sheltered from storms such that you become over-reliant. Too little protection exposes you to all hiccups and feels dejected after that. So what can we conclude in life - Too much of anything is never good. Being outfitted with these fundamental skills makes people feel that YOU are independent and they ignored the weaker side of YOU. When faced with trouble, they think that YOU can handle it cuz YOU are independent and strong. But who sees the intimate weaker side of you? There are always two sides to a coin. A balance must be strike some where.
Trust is getting blurrier as each day goes by.
Yet this is utmost fundamental basis we need in daily life. Can you trust the pork stall aunty that she sells you the freshest pork? Can you trust that your friends will be true to you? Can you even trust a relationship that betrayal is never going to set foot? How does trust come about? Intimacy? Relatedness? Authority? Personality? There are too many variables to determine the level of trust you can have in each and every soul you meet.
Can’t my life be calm and quiet for a day??? I may believe in learning from mistakes but goodness don’t have to make it so turbulent that I have to deal with so many things in my life all at the same time right??? Only God knows when I’ll be losing myself and what I will end up being. If only I can change the fate!!!